How fuckin dumb

So I looked you up today
Saw a picture of you and truly didn’t know what to say
Due to the fact I wanted to barf
Cause I saw your arm all full of scars
But I still won’t take you back
Just cause you’ve decided to loosen your slack
On takin your pills and give up on living right
So you go ahead you give up that fight
Be fucking dumb
Go ahead I still won’t come a crawlin
Cause I know to you my heart hasn’t been callin
This won’t get you anywhere
And you’ll be thinking that the world isn’t fair
Boy don’t you get for you I just don’t care
Not in the way I once did
It’s over
Throw it over your shoulder
Bleeding won’t bring me back
You never did even think of pleading
You’re pathetic
I’m gone
It’s time to move on
It’s been almost three months
It’s not that hard it really isn’t
You just have to forget
How great you could’ve had it
Had you sucked it up and begged just a bit
You lost just remember that
Just remember all you have to forget is what you had
Not that hard, I did it
Then again you weren’t too hard to forget
But you insisted on popping up every now and then
Just when I’d remember to not care again
There wasn’t a lot to remember to forget
Just the fact that you just never got it
So go ahead watch as you bleed
Maybe one day with God I’ll plead
To help you find your way
But right now there’s not a whole lot for me to say
Cause what you are is pathetic
You just don’t get it
I won’t ever take you back for pity
You piss me the fuck off
As you brace your arm to show off
Look at me world I’m falling apart
Look at my world a girl broke my heart
Get over it, it happens every day
Did you really think showing me that would cause me to say
How sorry I was that I left your heart shattered on the floor
How sorry I was when I walked out the door
How could you think I would such a thing
Don’t you know me at all I’m smarter than my looks may bring
It shames me to know you don’t know me at all
Cause you should know that when I fall
And no one comes after to catch me
That I won’t be
Looking back to relive
What I know will be the same
I don’t want to put myself through more pain
Because that’s how it would be 
Cause I’d be too daft too see
That nothing would alter
And my poor heart would falter
When again I realize that it’s pointless to carry on
You sicken me the way you grieve over how I’m gone
How fuckin dumb of you
To think that I’ll take you back ‘cause of what you do
I didn’t think you were this stupid Josh
To think that with your own blood you could wash
Away your pain
It doesn’t fuckin work that way
You can’t make people stay
With you out of pity
Cause honest babe a moral like that’s just shittty
This is no way to live your life
Slittin your wrist over every little fuckin strife
Grow the fuckin balls you claim to have
And relies that your life isn’t even that bad
Sure I’m gone
But this still is no way to carry on
It won’t bring me back
How many times must I say that
Snap out of it my hearts gone from where it sat
So nicely next to yours
Don’t do this
It won’t bring back the love of my kiss
Cause I wouldn’t ever let myself
Put my life on a shelf
Just cause I did what had too
Cause you told me once that you
Don’t ever think you could see me in pain
Well if I took you back it’d be my new name
Cause I’d be living a lie
I’d be chocking from the chains and inside
I’d be knowing too
That I couldn’t be happy only because
You couldn’t let me let go of us
And this is the most I’ve ever told you
And I’m glad that I do
Cause you need to know
That you’re killing yourself
And my heart will forever be gone form that shelf
Where you kept my heart
And I stare as your arms torn apart
It angers me that you really are this fuckin thick
That at your arm you’d let a razor blade pick
It’s sick get help
I wish to you a smack hard enough to welt
So some sense will be knocked into you
So you’ll realize that the fuckin dumb things you do
Are never going to get me back
Love just doesn’t work like this
You don’t exchange blood for a kiss
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