Unguarded Instinct

Acknowledgement of another’s emotions
And needs and wants and their very existence
Impairs my ability to not care
Acknowledgement of anyone
Impairs my ability to not give a damn

Why in the fuck should I acknowledge you?
Are you my equal? Are you my counterpart?
If so, what acknowledgement do you wish?
It’s not like I’m in charge of you (for fucks sake)

Do you wish me to acknowledge
That you are alive?
Do you wish me to acknowledge
That you are more?
Do you wish me to acknowledge
That you are human?
Do you wish me to acknowledge
That I enjoy your company?

Well I don’t

Or is it that you simply
Wish that I acknowledge
You in your entirety,
In the very subliminal least,
Your essence?

This I cannot do.

This I will make you suffer.

I acknowledge nothing of you
I acknowledge nothing in you.
I acknowledge nothing for you.
I don’t acknowledge you

Your are nothing
You are nil
You are a placebo

You seek acknowledgement to save face.
But what face do you have to save,
Hid behind your mask?

You acknowledge that you cry,
But you do not accept it
You acknowledge that you hate,
But you do not accept it
You acknowledge that you hurt,
But you do not accept it

You acknowledge that you reek of incontinence,
But you do not accept it
You acknowledge that you revel in the lust,
But you do not accept it
You acknowledge that you are a narcissist,
But you do not accept it

You acknowledge that you want to kill those around you,
But you do not accept it
You acknowledge that you want to kill those who love you,
But you do not accept it.
You acknowledge that you want to kill yourself,
But you do not accept it.
You acknowledge yourself,
But you do not accept yourself

And I can’t  respect that

Accept yourself you son-of-a-bitch.
Your acknowledgement is your comfort,
But your acceptance is your salvation.
Leave nothing unchecked,
Leave nothing unturned,
Leave nothing unguarded,

Unguarded Instinct