Deep inside
a pandoras box
of failings
hidden dirty desires
- ambitions of old
misconcepts of new
lurks unopened
until the next time
you shovel your insecurities
along my way
I mourned every single one
each with an equal measure
of sincerity and fantasy
Until I realised my life
would eternally remain static
without letting go
to absolve responsibility
of part of me
and move on
I hated you for so long
all I have now is relief
another unloved foetus flushed away
at our own convenience
I wonder where we'd be now
luckily the alarm clock awakens me
brings me to my senses
instead of dwelling on a nightmare
How could I have settled
for something less than the sum
of a postage stamp
All that was left was the taste of gum
a slight slit on the tongue
sealing words that were better off
unspoken anyhow...
It's all last years news
no point in dwelling in last year's woes
I'm so much more grateful
Life is beautiful
Those years of feeling blue
Wasted on the only man I ever new
Who would ever let me feel this way
used, raped, betrayed
How can I ever look back
without a smile on my face
for keeping my dignity throughout
you could never put me down
I couldn't care less who lost or won
Because I moved on
Sung a new song
Without you
Author notes
New year - I still have my pride, my happiness, my strength, my love of my life, my house, my car, my job - life is sweet. How can I regret anything which has come before. Without it, I would not be here now. I would not appreciate it as much. You cannot recognise the one until you realise what you are worth, what you deserve and what you want.
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Comments
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great work
this is a very lovely write telling us that yes ,, oy umade mistakes in the past (didnt we all?) but you have not let these mistakes drag you down and keep you depressed and sad but have used them as a learning tool to educate yourself and to move on,perfect for this is what life is all about,we live we love we hopefully learn.(not always
) very few mistakes are worth repeating but most are not and the wheel turns as we progress along life's road 
i wish you would have entered this into my new year contest as it would have surely taken gold
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I agree completely. We have to stand up and realize that we're still here and we're still going. Keep hope in your life. Justin
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damn straight sister!
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