Emptiness

Tortured and tattered inch by inch.
My heart laying in pieces,
feeling lost and empty inside
because of all of these devistations.
Why wont all this pain just go away.
My mind is bottled with hatred,
and it wants it all to end.
All because of my father,
My mother hates her kin.
With all the hell she put me through,
Its hard for me to just pretend.
Pretend that one day it will be better,
that it will be plain.
To her all of this is a game.
There are so many unreconciable
differences that both of us so much share.
But when i look into her eyes,
I can tell that she just doesnt care.
She used me and abused me
She even bloodied and bruised me.
The whole time growing up she so wanted to kill me.
She treated me like a prisoner of war,
an enemy that she had been waiting for.
Banished to the pits of hell, I shall ever be.
And in her mind a very bad memory.
maybe if she had looked hard enough
maybe she would have seen.
That all of the pain that she put me through
and all the love she lost from me,
will be a constant reminder of what could be.