Unhappy to be Happy
Why is it this way,
And why do I say the things I say,
That always gets me so worked up,
It’s like I need to be unhappy to be happy,
I need to be feeling crappy,
So I can enjoy my time,
In order to rhyme,
About all the hard times,
Because I need to be Unhappy to be Happy,
Even when my throat is hurting and my voice turns raspy,
Me,
Its seems I,
I don’t know why,
But I need this feeling,
I need to have the ceiling fall down upon myself,
I need to be the toy up on the dusty shelf,
I need to know nobody cares,
I need to have everlasting nightmares,
Tearing apart inside,
And it makes my heart feel good,
Screw up my whole life,
So I can sit on my bed and almost force myself to send a knife through my chest,
Because deep in the nest I need to be unhappy in order to happy,
Elapse,
In the time frame,
I need to the feel shame,
No pride,
I need to live life with no one on my side,
Why I need it,
Why can’t I forget it,
Pass it by,
Like I should,
But if I could,
I guess my whole life this is how it was,
So I love to argue and I love to fight,
Because without it I don’t feel alive,
I wish I could just be happy,
But that’s me,
And isn’t going to change no matter who I try to be,
I see it in my mind,
I see it in my body,
It’s all just a sign,
Maybe its because,
Its Unhappy to be Happy.
Author notes
I'm just really weird about that kind of stuff.
A contest entry
- Idiosyncrasies by CarolDesjarlais.
525 points, ended January 4, 2007, 5 entries
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I love this, I think the applause speaks for that. There are a few typos and I think this would have been easier to read if you used some punctuation other than commas. However I definitely enjoyed this poem a lot and many times I feel the same way. I love feeling crappy sometimes. It makes my day. :
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I like this. I LOVE contradictions, and i think you've got a hell'va one going here! I can connect with the feeling. I loved the repetitive 'Unhappy to be happy' every few lines. kudos to you!
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I have met many like you..the most frightening thing is happiness.....sometimes we know how to ahndle unhappiness and angst and so we keep it close to us so we can sink into that rather than deal with new feelings...Honest wwiritng and kudos for it.
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wow! That is great! I loved it! How have you been lately?
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