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Disgraced

I don't know what you say when I'm not there; but then again, I'm not sure I want to.
Those are the words that could kill me, when I'm already on my knees.
I would give anything for a little piece of something to believe in.
But you'll spend your whole life making sure that never happens.

This is not what I asked for. Not even close.

I was careful what I wished for. But I got you anyway. And now I'm nothing short of disgraced.

You sold me lies you may have believed yourself, but they were toxic and now I'm just diseased.
How was I supposed to know this, that you would leave me here broken?
I just wanted to know how it felt to be you and never bother trying.
But when you told me you could give me your life, you were lying.

This is not what I asked for. Not even close.

I was careful what I wished for. But I got you anyway. And now I'm nothing short of disgraced.

I don't want to look in the mirror, all I see is what you've done to me.
I don't want to look in the mirror, this is not who I wanted to be.

An empty vessel, an open wound, that bleeds only for you.

This is not what I asked for. Not even close.

Author notes

These are lyrics, like most of my stuff. Just written out in a different format. I'm hoping it can become a song very soon.

Once again, this is not about my love life. It's about a friendship, the kind I think everyone has had. You think you can trust this person, you want to be just like them, and they take advantage of your need for their approval and completely destroy you. And you're left to wonder how you could've ever let such a thing happen to you.

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  • sweetpearl
    February 1, 2007

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    Aw, this is sad.

    "I was careful what I wished for. But I got you anyway"

    --I liked this.

    "I don't want to look in the mirror, all I see is what you've done to me.
    I don't want to look in the mirror, this is not who I wanted to be."

    --reminds me of me at one point in time of my life where I got rid of all my mirrors. It ended up being a damn good thing, I found my true beauty then.


    • singtherevolution
      February 8, 2007
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      Thank you very much for the comment. I like the idea of not having any mirrors, although I'm not sure I could ever actually do it. It seems like it would be a healthy thing to do, and I'm impressed that you were able to pull something like that off. Most of us are too vain for that, myself definitely included, sadly.