SOMETHiNG HAS TO GiVE

never in my life have I been this unhappy
this sad
this depressed
I have never hated my life
this much.
I'm not happy with the way things are going
the way life is
and how I've been acting
I have to change it
I have to start over
My brother is in jail for 75 days
My boyfriend broke up with me
and if I dont stop drinking
I'm going to turn into a freaking alcoholic!!!
I need to stop cussing
and stop smoking
I need to get my life back on track
I'm thinking about getting baptised again
I have to start somewhere
I have to make a change
I have to fix things
I cant live like this
I cant stand to be this unhappy
Something has to give