and I cant sleep
I can't stop day dreaming of you
Pretending to see your face
when I awake
..but you are nowhere to be found..
and my heart is frozen in this silence
I am offered no comfort
by this emptiness.
My heart is full,
but my hands are empty
and I reach out to you
..but you are nowhere to be found..
so I wander these halls,
familiar to the walls of a broken heart
that I have released
for the sake of reclaiming a three letter name
B E N
and this is all that stands out
from the expression on my face
I am alone so I sit down
and I wait for you to rescue
the damsel in distress
..but you are no where to be found..
So I close my eyes
accustom to this darkness
where you do breathe again
and no breath escapes these lips
that are frozen in time
and they are red
and they are ready
to be tasted by you
..but you are no where to be found..
So I return to my room
where your face paints the walls
our memories paint the halls of this home
I close my eyes
and I smile one last time
and I take in your scent
present again
My hands are warmed
I am not alone
My lips are tasted one last time
and
My thoughts kiss you all over
..but you are no where to be found..
Author notes
Once again, my extreme co-dependency takes over, and this is my product. But I dont really see this as a sad poem... Just because you miss someone, doesn't mean you're sad. This poem is about being in love, and what a huge role it plays in everyones' lives. Maybe you just have to see it from my point of view to see the "happy" side of it. I dont know.
Written May 27th, 2003
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awww
aww adrian told me to read... its soo pretty!! i really like your poems!!! -
BUT I WIPE MY OWN ASS!
Kala, This is so great...you were always good with the one liners that kick you right in the forehead...I read this one when you posted it on Xanga a few days ago, I don't remember if I commented or not. This is truly beautiful...I'm real jealous of you and Ben
-Jena
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Do Not Touch!
Ooo, freaky. This is a truly amazing write. I love how you fit that one line
"...but you are nowhere to be found..."
in so perfectly. Some people, I guess, just like the thought of a repeating line, and it doesn't fit well, but you did a great job here. You're feeling and thoughts a vivid in the picture. This is true imagery. Very well-done.
Gi
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Such a beautiful write. I once liked a guy named Ben... When I was but a wee little one... He is now my best friend, but I have moved on to one named Eric. Like you really care. But this write was truly amazing. I hate being alone. I simply abhore it! Suicide often runs through my mind due to my loneliness... I love this poem though. I felt the pain. Awesome write.
Emy -
almost impossible to sleep when someone is on your mind
and you don't have that one and can't find him or her.
the damsel in distress line has been over used in poetry
and prose. you can come up with a fresher expression. -
This is a sad but sweet piece...I really enjoyed reading it. It can be interpreted in a number of different ways but i think i catch the basic drift of it. I like the repitition. It really adds to the effect of the words you put together here. My favourite lines were
"so I wander these halls,
familiar to the walls of a broken heart
that I have released
for the sake of reclaiming a three letter name"
The imagery and wording in this really hits home. Sorry you have to go through the awful pain of lonliness...it's not a pretty place to be.
~Dreamer





