[ no one who i thought was close to me except one and you know who you are is real. ]

no one who i thought was close to me except one and you know who you are is real.
everything seems to be everyone else's fault but their own, i hate everything.
think about the nights you spent drinking bill money? we didn't do that.
yeah, we don't have much, have not been able to give much but when we have it we give it.
shit we gave up our last 60 dollars one week, just so something got paid in by us.
and now the main one this is about is on the verge of losing everything.
you know how many times we have lost everything? or had to sell things before moving?
i don't see how something we have had no control over is our fault, and they say they will never speak to us again if  this really happens and that they need all our money!
UHH, EXCUSE ME  but they are getting 70 % of my check on the 1st plus money from the other people that live here too..like i said, we give it when we have it, and sometimes we just don't have it..  got to pay bills and childsupport and the lord only knows.
i just wish there was something that i could do NOW, i want so badly to leave NOW!
we need to have somewhere to go NOW or we might end up homeless..yeah..it's that bad!
i just want to cry my eyes out for the rest of the night..in fact i'm starting to cry now. Then people wonder why we are the way we are, it's because, somehow we always get the short end of shit and i'm so sick of it that i could just scream! ARRRH.
we've fucking cleaned this house, he's fixed the fence, helped with the pool..we've brought food into the house when we could..but no one cares..they say we have done nothing and given nothing. i could probobly go on to type another 6 pages of shit..maybe i will at this rate...i guess we are just worthless pieces of shit and a waste of flesh and air..apparently we don't matter..and people who know the situation don't even defend us! what the fuckk..well guess what..fuck you..now you all can do it on your own , we are sick of being treated like this and it's not the first time..like we are such horrible people i guess..