Why Do I Cry

Ever time I wake up thinking abuot my pain telling myself everything is gonna be okay. deep inside of me know its won't be okay, and 

I  feel the tear comming down my check then i started to cry.. after i ask myself why i'm crying why dose its hurt so bad.
Then i realize my life turn out to be so wrong I have two little girl that depend on for survivial and their dumb ass father left me for my best freind of ten year, and he nowhere to be fround. Every night I put my two litte angle to sleep and i stay up thinking about what i am gonna do to give my girls a better furtrue.

My anger that i felt inside of me become into pain that i am hurting why dose its hurt so bad. I need to be the stongt one in my family cause my girl depend on me for survivial, but why am i so weak right now.... I hear tamara calling out mommy i need you right now then i ran to her she ask me why do you cry every night when you put us to sleep because i can hear you pray God.

All i can hear is mommy why do you cry so much what wrong with you, and that one word thet both told me is we gonna be okay i promise you we will make its through