I let you take away my life
Endlessly tormented by the guilt
That you used to control my every move
If only I'd known sooner
Maybe I wouldn't have stopped it
I would have let you use me anyway
I let you take it all away
Until my identity blurred into yours
Now I feel useless without you
Why can't I let go?
To recover is going to send me
Up a long road out of the depths
That you plunged me into
Buried so long from the light
That I can't feel it on my skin
I feel sick and broken
So far gone-gone forever
I keep kicking up
As I struggle against your ghost
Every phrase, every feeling, every sigh
That ended in your name
Now haunts me like a shadow dream
My attempts to move on
Still get thwarted by my memory
Of having you fill me up completely
With your problems, your pain, your needs
That I hate to admit I loved at all
Love you still
LIke a wetched tar-covered heart still beating
That I'd rip out of my chest
If it didn't mean I'd lose you
I'd burn every picture
But saving your smiling face
Serves to torment me
Crying seems a small price to pay
To know that I felt emotions
So overwhelming, encompassing
That it's killing me to separate myself
From the memory of having you
Author notes
So I left Will (relationship of 3 years) been living on my own and dealing with loneliness, jumping into another relationship, and trying to sort out my feelings on love and sex. This is mostly my reflection on how I feel about what my relationship was with Will.
Please tell me what you think
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Very insightful. It reflects your turmoil in the way it was written. Sort of choppy, stream of consciousness. All the same, I think it was a success, and a well written one at that. Great job and best wishes.
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wow i really like it. it touch my heart alot. yo i been through relationships and i i learned was give it all you got and make the best out of it. dont always get sex out it all. but the #1 thing you should know is dont let nothing come in between you and her
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Wow...how brave of you to share your very intimate feelings. Poetry can be a good way to work through all of those emotions and sometimes crystallize experiences for us.
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Beautiful
You not alone in this ship of recked love abandoned in the lock of memories, So many of us has been tomented by the deep love we have shared and given out and that has made many of us loss faith in love and find it so hard to move on, this is a well heart poured feeling that you have shared with us here and i am glad you could pour it out, one thing i know about poetry which i call the magic of free flow is that no matter how hurt you are the more you free your heart and pour ur soul the more relieved you become. So poet i encourage you to hold on to the pen and never let go always remmeber that nothing on earth is worth taking your happiness,It is all u have for urself do not remain in the passion and emotion there is more but face the truth and see the lesson life has brought for you cos nothinghappen without a lesson and it all do for your own Good , and not left out The lord is one friend that will never let you down why not seek and give him a chance well poet just a sujection it worked for me .
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good
that is so true deep words your useing.
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i had the same type of relationship and he left me with a baby...at 15.its been 5 months but i am now over him...even though i thought i would never.....think of all the crap he put you through after all the things you did for him, my first step in getting over Holton was hating him. now i love him for giving me Loralye but still feel the hatred that will keep my life on a better path....read some of my poetry.....the sooner you get over him the sooner opportunities will open and you WILL be given a better love...one that you deserve, i have!
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been there...
some people are hard to let go especially the ones that mess you up the most but going around in circles is fine as long as you keep walking forward.
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