Lethal Weapon

By the side of the phone
I sit staring
Longing for it to play
My favorite ring tone
Just one more time

Tired eyes
Weary soul
Heart hollowed
As silence echoed
In to my thin ears

Hands are shaking
Tears floating at the rim of pale eyes
One more tear and off it will pour
The saltine droplets on my naked face

All alone caught in a fire
Of my longing desire
Lethal weapon is my phone
If it buzzes the same ring tone

The holy night has arriving
Santa Claus is flying
Families and friends have come together
Gathered in the Churches praying

While I’m imprisoned within my own walls
All alone, stranded
I’ve locked the doors
And thrown away the keys

One candle is still burning
The burning desire for him to call
On the same phone number like always
Until he broke my heart and walked all over me

I’m in crowd all alone
My family loves me
Pouring precious gifts
I tenderly smile
And even made jokes

Still the knocking at my heart doesn’t stop
It’s continuously banging leaving scars
Not even after I sent him message
Wished him Merry Christmas
He not even bothered to return a response

I’m not alone & yet loneliness is my friend
I hear laughter & yet silent are my ears
I render smiles & yet tears float in back of eyes
I understand the joy of the season & yet sorrows are by my side

What is it about Christmas?
That pierces my heart & soul
Leaves deeper wound by the passing minute
Only as a reminder lethal weapon
Will never make the sound of the ring tone
I’ve been waiting for so long

Ignoring still, by the side of the phone
I sit staring
Longing for it to play
My favorite ring tone
Just one more time