"Rushing"

Ya, alright you primitive screw heads, listen up...

  It's plain to see the wind beneath the trees...your addicted to the drug of lust.  So I give you these roses now, but I left in the thorns.  I'd rather hurt someone then hurt myself.  You say that you want respect.  But all I see right now is the one who's lost and insecure.  I know you hurt yourself.  So let me take this medicine to quench my thirst for violent things.  This love is getting harder.  Do you see the life I lead?  So fallow me into the sun.  I will bleed the poison.  All we do is hate, bleeding with passion to kill the whitest living dove to hate oh everything I love, I'm to scared to live tonight, I just can't live tonight, so please tell me I'm not wanted.  Remember what you said to me.  I said that you were mine first, but you weren't even close now, like a frame in a movie, your just one of many.  So can you grant me just one last wish, lets play russian rulette as we kiss.  The truth should always be.  So speak your mind, all this pain here.  I won't listen.  Crying as I carve into my flesh, and this false heart whatching romance from a far seat bleeding from the glass on my feet. See the view of kindness say goodbye.  I'll teach you what it's like, flowing free, choking from my own air, and all I know is revenge is sweet when you know that you are worthless and I am better than the games you play.  I'll take you unto the top of this building, and just push you off.  Run down the stairs so I can see your face as you hit the street. 

  You know that you are worthless.  This time I win so here's your kiss goodbye.  If you pull to hard then the string will break.  If you leave the slack then the string wont hold.  Fill the glass to the brim and it will spill out.  So how can we find ourselves within the broken hearts that are soaked with fear.  Don't try to hard to understand or you'll mess up.  My heart it now breaks and the blood spilled down your spine.  I am no good at suicide, and I lost what was mine.  Then I wondered what was mine.  Please come back to me.  I'll get the evidence from your last day.  Life is floating fast away.  From the moment you left I knew that something wasen't right.  You and me we'er like one heart beat.  The letter you sent has kept me up all night.  These words are tiny so tell me what to do.  You saw me bleeding on the bathroom floor.  Forget my name.  There's poison in my drinking glass, don't stop just sip it down, and in a swirling masquerade of sound my body hits the ground.  Burn out, not fade away.  Pull the trigger and the nightmare stops.  I'll attack someone with a swich blade knife, so they ought to see the pain I feel. Sail with me into the setting sun, The battle has been won the war has just begun. This capitan goes down with the ship, all hands on deck stand hit for hit, I shout the orders, shoot to kill.  As we grow emotions start to die, so fallow me to victory.  With every passing moment it just keeps on getting wores.  I wont forget the day that I found God in a kitchen knife now and on my arm.  I feel like running head first into traffic.  You whatch me fall like New York in an earth quake.  I stand outside my pretty house, I light a match, to start the fire, I call the cops to let them know its 22 Waltery Ave. I thought I wanted this.  I said I wanted some more attention, I just cant win.  I hate the pain.  I think that the truth is I'm scared.  I think that I'm just scared to live. 

                                                    Written By Nichole Purvine