*Sigh*...
Life has been venturesome the past couple weeks. Not because of physical activity we so often think about, but because of the continuous thoughts and ideas aimlessly running through my head. It is my 2nd year of high school and in between going to classes, working at a hotel, and keeping up with my family and friends... "what are you going to do with your life?" ...I hate that question. Really. Sure I have ideas and desires in my mind, but how would I know exactly what I'm going to do when the past 11ish years have been saturated with school. That is all I know... that's all most people my age know actually.
I want to succeed. I want to explore. I want to experience life. Most of all, I want my heart to be right and I want to glorify God in the things that I do. I've realized that I cannot plan every minute, every conversation, or every occurence. All those plans fail at some point. But I can dream, hope and enjoy today. It's amazing how the two little words "enjoy today" make my perspective clear. I'm okay with the uncertainty about the future and every aspect along with that. I am okay because I know that when my heart is in the right place everything will follow.
My life is a process of learning. It is a process of restoration and praise. I am seeing that every situation, whether it is joyful, hard, uncomfortable, or exciting, is an opportunity to learn and to grow. Meanwhile, I can see my heart and mind being restored from past and present hurt or discomfort. In turn, the restoration and healing I've experienced also brings praises and joy to the power of God.
I am so blessed and privileged to be where I am, and i don't wan't to waste that and create a meaningless life story. I want it to matter. And I want it to last. I desire to experience all of life including the junk. Then it will be genuine.
This is my desire right now.
Please tell me what you think
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Hun, this is inspiring... You sound so much like me, I woke up one day realizing I was a senior, with no where to go. I mean what? Do I just graduate and then the next morning I'm suddenly equiped to leave a succesful legond of making it in the adult world? No way! But you right, all those things set aside, it's not about the plan, it's about who your living your life for. The world you your Creator....
Anywho I'm glad you shared this, it gave me a better perspective (as almost everything you write does).. I feel much better now. Love you so soo sooo much sweety!
-shirley-
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thank ya!
Thanks for reading it hun..and im glad my poetry/writing does that for you!! im happy that you read this...i know it really should be more for those who are seniors but im thinkingabout it now too b/c i have no clue what to do when i do graduate. so yeah anyways, thanks for reading it sweets! <33 Im glad you feel better.
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mhmm, yea, but some people mature faster.. your thinking about this now when your not yet to that point, but it comes so much faster than you think... it's probably a good thing that your arent that point, it will give you more time to prepare and think, but i honestly think i'm hopeless!
i'm so determined to be a mature non-adult. i know it sounds odd, but hey, i'm odd, so it fits.
g'night doll, i loooo
ooove you!
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