So Beautiful

"I hope you don’t mind, I hope you don’t mind, that I put down in words...
How wonderful life is, when you’re in the world..."




Here I go again,
tripping and stumbling
over my own feelings ;

knocking down
and rebuilding
my walls :

letting some people in,
and then locking them out
again,

and keeping inside someone,
who aside from a few moments
keeps looking
out of a window...

Just another reason
I give myself
to break
this fortress
and draw closer in
to myself -
no more walls.

I sit and shiver
in the winter air,
sucking my breath in
as icy thoughts
hit my heart ;

threatening to paint
a snowy white
my canvas
bright with life.

I won't succumb,
I know.

I simply rest my soul
in its solitude :

warmth wanders
in and out
of my open home -
stranger and friend
at the same time.

I wonder,
should I just
take her by the hand
and hold her close to me,
and I wonder,
if she can withstand
these freezing moments.

And I just let her be.

I smile inwardly
when she lingers for a while
thinking about the cold aura
that surrounds me,

and I cringe inside
when she turns to go,
seeking something beyond here
that I don't understand.

But she leaves behind her
a peaceful afterglow
in which I breathe free;

and cold or not,
my whispers bring to me
a melody draped in happiness...

love is so beautiful.