Alone

everyone dressed in black
mourning a dead friend
no one feels the heart breaking with every step taken burning in my heart
walking closer and closer 2 the coffin
standing before the beautifully carved casket
that lays before me carrying broken soul
looking at his handsome face for the last and final time
my heart broken and not 4 the last time
'i promised i wouldn't cry, i promised i wouldn't cry' runs through my mind
but the tears escape tightly closed eyes anyway
a warm hand pats my shivering shoulder
looking up
she whispers "he loved you so much"
arms wrapped around me
"I-I-I"choking on the word I wish to say but my body wont let me
knees buckle as i hide swollen brown eyes begin to leak
"I-I watched him d-die"
the words finally spill out
as I sob into the comforting arms of a childless mother
the flashbacks hit me so hard i cant stand
it breaks my heart 2 think I'm alone without him
someone who could make me smile and laugh
a boy i loved well never smile again
any other day I'm left to wake up
never to see that beautiful face
never to hear that song like voice
carrying the agony each of life
another day....... alone and cold.