In Memory

I remember the look on your face the last time I saw you
There was no sadness, nor any sorrow
It was like your end wasn't there, as close as tomorrow
A big silly grin on your face lit up the room
And now when I think of you that's all I see
Your memory will never be replaced
For our moments together were too precious to forget
Don't fret, my love, for I still think of you
When the sky is that special shade of blue
Or when your laugh resonates in my head
To me, your soul will never be dead

Where have you gone? I hope you're safe
I hope you're happy and smiling
Like you did in the old days
Sometimes it kills me inside
It makes me cry for days on end
Knowing that you're not coming back
Knowing that all I have left is memories
And your picture in a frame
Sometimes I feel so lost without you
And I ask why did you leave me behind?
I'd rather have you than the air that I breathe

Where did you go? I wish you could write me
Maybe it would take away some of this grief
Sometimes I feel as if my heart has stopped beating
The chords of your life were so beautiful
Why did your song have to end?
Without your notes beside mine
The composition of my life comes up short
I know you didn't go on purpose
And I could never blame you for leaving
But without you my future seems empty
Without you I'm disabled

I love you so much, even when you can't hear me speak
Sometimes I write you letters, but burn them in the stove
It's so hard to believe that you aren't here anymore
You were always there when I cried myself to sleep
But now I don't have anybody to pick me back up when I'm weak
It's been a while since you left
But my scars haven't healed, they're still brand new
Not even a million stitches could heal this battle wound
Because I was fighting for you
I still remember scattering your ashes across the sea
You said it was what you always wanted, right?

Where have you gone? I hope you're safe
I hope you're happy and smiling
Like you did in the old days
Sometimes it kills me inside
It makes me cry for days on end
Knowing that you're not coming back
Knowing that all I have left is memories
And your picture in a frame
Sometimes I feel so lost without you
And I ask why did you leave me behind?
I'd rather have you than the air that I breathe

I can honestly say I can never blame you for leaving me that day
But I blame myself for not appreciating you enough
Do you hear me? I miss you so much
My heart still aches when I look at your pictures
I miss your smile, your laugh has faded from my head
It's been so long since you left
But I feel like you've just gone
I'll lock your memory in my pocket
Because I don't want you to leave just yet
There's so many things I haven't said
Please, just listen to me one last time

When they said "In loving Memory" over the intercom I saw you smile
I heard your voice say, "I'll stay just a little while."
I know that you stuck around just for me
You renewed my memories, they were brand new again
I know that I'll never truly have you back
But at least I have a little something
A trinket that shined the brightest in my jewelry box
I know that some day my memory of you will fade
But know that I love you still, in every way
Even when you're gone and I'm still here
Please know that without you, I wouldn't be who I am today