I have so much I want to ask you
But now you are no longer here,
You put others through so much in life
So much suffering, so much fear…
But now you have left us
Gone far away,
Left us here wondering,
With so much left to say.
You may have been my father
But you wanted far too much,
You never cared for your family
Even telling us such.
Father I don’t understand,
Why you did those things…
Why you hit and beet me,
Caused the pain the memory brings…
You told me I was evil
That all you did was right,
Do you know how much you hurt me?
How I still fear every night?
I want to forgive you…
After all you made me all I am.
I just don’t know why you did it
I was a mere child you a grown man…
Yet you saw it right to beet me,
Burn me, throw me against the wall,
Hit, scream, kick me,
Beet until I would fall.
Father this is my only question
Once answered you may rest in peace,
But I truly need to know this
Maybe then the pain will cease:
Why?
Author notes
ye... so my father's dead... but I can't help still wondering...
Please tell me what you think
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Want to hug you.
All i can say is look to his upbringing and you may find pity for a soul that knew no other behavior. You will make you what you become, just be aware that only you can bring on change. Parents shape us but we fire the mould. Keep up the exellent work, well done.
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Beautiful,Heartwrenching Write
A beautiful and heartwrenching write.Its such a shame that we children have to bear the sins of those that are suppose to love us and take care of us yet instead abuse us so mentally and physically.In the end they suffer just as they made us suffer.
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your father does not deserve peace..peace is for the kind not the weak.. as far as why.. Im afriad that s something you will need to put away.. it was forever lost when he left you on that day. Find within you your strenght embrace that.. over time it should put away the very haunting question of why.
best wishes
Midnight
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ohhhh no
hey master come and see here every one is waiting for you
they need you
every one have to die
come with new spirits
where is you new work
by
the poet of hearts and beautiful words
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awww this is so sad....but it was an awesome write. you'll be ok and you'll get through this. im sure
keep up the good work
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I understand this question...funny today i went and did the family thingy planted him down deep .... i never had the courage to ask the question why...what had i done why me ..... my pain is personal and am not about to spill it all out but i cannot ask the question and perhaps i never will know. I shed not one tear and i know i never will give that satisfaction .... I can only say you like me we will never truly know but i know i am so lucky to have my wolf supporting me holding me in his arms of love making me stronger giving me the strength to look at my abuse and try to deal with it. There are no words, no questions or answers.I hope you have strength of love from those closest to you soak up their strength you are no longer a victim you are now truly free...hope you find it soon the freedom that is....he can no longer touch you so dont let him in now when the link can be forever cut ... the time is for you now to enjoy your life. stand in love and applause a heartfelt post hard to pen hard to read for me but much better out than inside burning you up....remember keep the faith in who you are a much better man than he ever could be...now he has to answer for his crimes against you.
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so sad.
this is very sad. i'm sorry :'( but it's very well written. just hang in there.
Ashley
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