Christmas without you
My Son, this year as Christmas time draws near,
I feel your spirit close beside me more,
although it was your time to leave me here
to join the rest who passed on through death's door.
You left behind a broken heart that day;
a caring Mum who loves you deeply still.
I know you had no choice and could not stay.
You left this life in sleep - it was God’s will.
above my desk, love shining from your eyes.
I see your dear face smiling down on me
My heart will heal in time - it’s meant to be
and grief is part of healing when one dies.
I know your spirit soars in heavenly skies
as angels meet to honour Christmas there.
With joy all gather round to plan surprise
and greet you with a hug to show they care.
The love they give to you is worth the wait
to see your loving family once again
with open arms and: "How’re you going mate?
Come, join the fun around this heavenly plain."
My faith will lead me through these darkest days
of missing if I know you’re happy there
for love will see me through in every way.
I know, with time, it’s easier to bear.
Beatrice Joan Benecke (Angelica), December 11th. 2006
Author notes
This will be my first Christmas without my Son Brian
who went to sleep on august 23rd 2006 and woke up in heaven aged 38.
Picture is of Brian taken in January 2006 with his older Sister Sharon.
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this poem made me cry it kind of reminded me of when my mom died thanks so much for this amazzing poem♥
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A very touching poem of love
I do hope that each Xmas from now on will be a time of happiness as you grow stronger and more able to cope. I bet that Brian will be with you each minute to feel sad and he will bring a smile back to your face.
Bless you
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Beautiful !
What a lovely write in memory of your beloved Brian. I hope in time your pain subsides. I'm sure he is watching over you until it is your time to join him and once again be reunited. Well done
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thats a lovely picture aj. another beautiful write. i am glad you have your poetry, it is the perfect way to express your feelings and every poem so far has been nothing short of beautiful.
you are a beautiful writer, everything is straight from the heart.
les and i are so proud to have you as our aunty... even though i am gaining you through marriage lol. we are very blessed, as are all your children for having such a beautiful mother.
we love you very much
les and til
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Darling Til and Les,
Brian's earthly body may be gone, but his spirit is here with us. Thank you sweetheart and in my eyes you're more of a Niece to me than you know, closer than any of my biological nieces and Les is my dearest Nephew and I love you both very much. I'm proud to have both of you in my life.
Love AJ
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My friend I'm sorry for your loss Joan. I understand only too well the loss of family. and yes they are always there in spirit reaching & smiling when they can.
Hugs my friend!
Bill
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Thank you my friend
Thanks Bill for your kind words, yes he's always around us, each time I take a photo he is there like a mist, especially in the rose garden we are doing in our backyard where we'll place his ashes next saturday. I'll send you some, and especially the one taken at our daughters place christmas day.,,,amazing.
Love Joan
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This is heartbreaking, I too know the loss of a son all too well, but to have held him for 38 years is something I cannot comprehend, my heart goes out to you....
I thank you for entering this contest, I wish you the very best of luck
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He is here in my heart
Thank you Karen, it is hard isn't it? It's something you have to experience to know the heartbreak of losing a child no matter what their age. The photo with his Sister was the last one taken of him when he was alive. But he is here with me in my heart. I'm sorry for your loss as well.
Joan
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This was beautiful. I can't even begin to imagine what it would be like to spend Christmas without somebody I love, but this Christmas two people I consider friends are going through it. I'm sure Brian would have loved this, and I hope that your Christmas is a wonderful one and a spiritual one.
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thank you Chris
dear Chris,
Brian is with me in my heart all the time, I feel him with me, and though physically he won't be with us, his spirit will be. Thank you my dear friend for your kind words.
Love Joan
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First I would like to say, I am very sorry for your loss, although you do seem to have a positive outlook. This was a very touching piece and it spoke volumes, he still shines in your heart and may you keep him there!
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Your words are very kind
Thank you Jarrod for your kind words. Brian is here in my heart close to me and I know his spirit lives on and we will meet again one day. I appreciate you coming by to visit.
Joan
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Dear Bea,
I know that photo is the last you have of Brian and what a beautiful picture it is! He and Shaz look so
alert for the photographer and Shaz is looking radiant. (You can tell her I said so or maybe I will next time we chat.)
Your poem is a sincere and utterly unaffected outpouring of your feelings and of the deep faith and conviction that comes from your soul and makes you the wonderful person that you are. Although the body may go the way of all flesh, you and I know that the Spirit is incorruptible and that the love of one soul for another can never be destroyed. Thus it is with Brian who now is with the heavenly angels where he is beyond the sphere of earthly cares and troubles.
An absolutely beautiful poem, Bea, which only you could have written.
Applause, love and hugs, XXX Hugh.
PS: I apologise for the lateness of this comment but, knowing as you do, the reasons for my tardiness, I hope for your forgiveness.
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Thankyou Hugh
My dear Hugh,
I know how you've been through the pain of losing two children and know how much it hurts. But as you know like me that the spirit lives on, it's only the body they live in that dies, and that gives us great comfort to know that when it's time for us to leave this earth we will be reunited with all our loved ones who've gone before us.
Thankyou for your lovely comment and I do know how pressed for time you've been. So I appreciate your commenting all the more.
Love Bea
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Joan,
I feel your pain so deeply, my friend I know he is there over your shoulder. He knows you love him and always have. He loves you too, but he's at peace. I know there is nothing I can say to take the pain from you, but we both know he is in great company. He sings with the Angels and watches over us all. This is truly a beautiful piece of your heart and I am sure he is smiling as your spirit reaches out to him. In time you will dance together, but not yet. You've so much to do here and he will guide you. Peace, blessings and love. I wish I were there to walk with you in the winds. I truly do. Love, Gypsy
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He is with me
Darling Gypsy, you will be there when I walk with the wind, holding my hand as the tears of healing flow freely.
He is around me, I feel him there behind me, the smell of the cigarettes he used to smoke wafting past my nose, his arm around me with a hug to let me know he's here.
I know he's being looked after by the angels that I asked to take care of him.
Thank you my friend for the care and kindness you've given me.
Love, Joan
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Brian and Sharon
Dear A/J
A lovely poem for Brian, I know he'll be with you at Christmas time. He loved you so much and always worried about you, he's told me when I've spoken to him before. I love the pic of Brian and Sharon.
love Jen.
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Hugs to you
Thank you sweetpea, I know he's around me and always will be. Thank you for your lovey comment.
Love Joan
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Dear Joan, again, all I can do is offer condolences - you are grieving with deep feeling and great dignity. Your faith is a beacon to everyone, for we all have or will have such significant losses.
Blessings and many, sweet lady.
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Brian send your mum a sign, please
When I saw the title it gripped my heart because I knew about Brian and I could feel your grief across the miles. I am praying Brian sends you a sign so you know he's happy there and he wants you to be happy here until your time to go there. I try to remember that when I miss my loved ones. So smile my angel and be on the look out for a sign for Brian sent to his special mum.
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My sweet Pixie
Thank you my sweet angel, I know Brian will be with us as we celebrate Christmas at Julie's, we'll even place a special chair for him so he can join in with us as he wouldn't want us to be sad. I can feel him with me these last few days and he plays with our cat Shani as she loved Brian, and Bob & I laugh as we know Brian is here playing with her often. Wendy our other cat just looks at him & follows him around the room, it's so comical to watch.
I wouldn't be surprised if Brian's in some of the Christmas photo's.
Love AAAJ
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What a wonderful poem staright from you heart to Heaven's door to honor such a wonderful soul who was part of you. I know he'll be with you throughout the Holiday season. ~Bud~
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Thanks Budsy
Dear Budsy, He's been with me for days I can feel him here in my heart. Thank you my friend for your comment.
Love Joansy
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Love, I never knew of this tragedy of yours and wish to extend my sincerest sympathy and condolences. I know it is so hard for you but I know that your trust in God will help you throught these sorrowful days. Joan, I hope you are still able to enjoy your Christmas in the spirit he would have wanted for you.
Barry.
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Thank you my friend
Thanks Barry, you must've been on the road when it happened. He was missing for two days before we found him, but he went peacefully in his sleep, it was very unexpected.
thank you for your condolences.
Love Joan
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Joan this is beautiful, I am so sorry for your loss. I know he knows how much you loved him and I'm sure he will be there in his own special way with you on christmas day. This poem made me cry its so heartfelt and just simply gorgeous. I will be thinking of you christmas day, I know it will be bitter sweet.
Love Laura
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He's with me
dear Laura, thank you my sweet for your loving thoughts for me. Yes, he will be with all of us as we celebrate Christmas. I've felt him around me a lot these last few days.
Love Joan
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your heart sings out for the memory of your departed son. His memory still lives in the beauty and tendernes of your heart.... I know he is watching from above and he still smiles upon you and as he reads and feels the love found wihtin this poem.... He will be with you in spirit over this holiday season
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Very appreciated
Thanks Ed for reading my poem to my Son, it's much appreciated.
Hugs Joan
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This is so very touching and beautiful, I am so sorry for your loss, he was still so young, I can only imagine how as his Mother you feel, may God give you the strength to get through the holiday season, and may your Son rest in eternal peace knowing he has your love always Bella.
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He is loved
Thank you Bella for your lovely comment, I really appreciate you stopping by and reading my poem.
Love Joan
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