Killing Time

Tick.
Life is moving so slowly, my heart, my soul, my body, is gathering dust. dust of impatience, hatred, hopelessness. Layer by layer, covering up feeling, numbing it all, numbing everything.
Tock.
It's stopped. I know it has. It's pendelum has clogged up with its own disgusting grime. I tried to pry my eyes from its horrifying face, but I had fallen into it's hypnotizing trap.
Tick.
It swayed once more, then froze still choked on its own smut.
Tock.
I cringed at each annoying clack of its swing. It made me want to regurgitate the very life out of me.
Tick.
I tore the clock off the wall and threw it against the floor. It's shattered pieces reflected defeat. I smiled and climbed back into bed, closed my eyes, and began to relax.
THUMP-thump.
The beating of my own heart. I could feel the icy blood flow through my body with each pump. I could hear an echo of longing; worthless desire.
THUMP-thump.
My very own internal clock was mocking me. I screamed and cursed Time. I cursed the clanking manacles it had around my ankles and wrists. I cursed it's pulse-like laughter.





An hour-glass stood towering over me. Casting a dark, piercing shadow. I studied the glass. It was magnificent. It shined and glistened; winking. Inside, little pieces of gold dust fell to the bottom half of the transcendent hour-glass. In the top half, the golden dust mosaicked pictures. I focused on them....It was you. Brilliant in the auric dust, was you, your love, your warmth...
I stared at your smile unblinkingly until my eyes began to water. The extraordinary time keeper became depressing all at once. My surroundings darkened. I continued to stare at you, tears running down my cheeks.


I'm still staring. Counting each golden fragment falling down into the abyss...Wasting away...waiting. Enjoying your smile all the while...Killing time.