Delirium

Ignore the girl behind the
Curtain, sunlight makes her dust.
She cannot save the world if
Illumination means dust
Sadness jumbles all about
Who and whether you should trust.
There are things she has tried to
Learn, for so long, for so long,
And information she
Gathered for so long, for so long.
Don't crush her sandcastles,
Though sand is rock, it's not so strong.
The clock hasn't stopped yet,
There’s plenty of suffocating time,
The tick and the tock wind on,
A threatening sort of time.
Descending in life span with
Every line of my rhyme...
The hurt isn't quite full yet,
Spray it with the antidote.
The pain has a reverse still,
If you find the antidote.
Search your past for the true wound
It lies in the hurt you wrote
Your portrait will thank you, in
A six-year-old's frozen smile,
Everything wasn't so hard,
When you surrendered that smile.
Now you can only wonder:
Was it really worth your while?
When gelatin was magic,
It spilled into my river,
As it wound slowly on,
And dissolved in my river.
Poison I could not control;
Evil I can’t deliver.
And all nothing was allowed,
There was so much they told me
And yet I couldn’t know it,
Pretending ignorant me
I kept my thoughts too silent
To help my spirit be free.
But now it all made of pig,
My river is a cool stream,
That spills along muddy beds
That held many a soul’s stream
Over a course of long years
And crushed many a dream.
…and now I’m allowed to know,
I wish I didn't, because
Everything is permitted
Seemingly only because.
So it's all happening now,
Nothing is the way it was.
She'll keep her sort of silence
So I promise I'll keep mine,
As shadows and opposites,
(I’m all hers and she’s all mine)
We’ll stride onward, unwilling.
She’s the Me for which I pine.