& This is Closure

How many times will we say goodbye before the story comes to an end?
This relationship is redundant and slipping
My eyes are welled up with tears and your voice is weak from explaining yourself
I'm envious of your bravery
Just look at yourself in the mirror. You're stronger than I've ever been
I didn't end this myself. You helped. Oh god you helped
Yet you walk away from me like your heart was never in it
I can't go on the way we've been. It's killing me but you don't see that
You see me break down, hit the wall, and cry for help
Poor defenseless little girl in need of rescue
Your way of saving me has always been to lift me up above all the rest, choosing only me
"I love you" you whispered in my ear with your arms locked around my waist
"I love you too" my guard has been let down. The hardest mistake to come by

Weeks pass by, things are falling apart
I don't dare to question it, because I'm apprehensive to hear the truth
But I can't go on walking on these eggshells
You claim that you want to be free of commitment
I can feel myself tearing up. My heart's being torn apart again
"It's not your fault" you mutter
You have your own issues to work through
Somehow, along the way, I stopped being a part of your world
To me, you were amazing. I painted a picture of you in my mind
The colors were dull and the texture was rough, but I could make you out perfectly
As though my heart was screaming out "That's him"

I know this time I have to let you go.
I'm trying to avoid those nights alone on my bathroom floor.
Cigarettes burning next to me. Dull razorblades by my side.
I'll cry over the good times. The days we spent falling in love.
This time tomorrow, she'll be on your arm.
All I can do is walk on by. I have no words left to say to you.
You want a friendship. I don't ever want to see you smile again.
I'm more than hurt. I'm exasperated beyond belief.
In a way, this isn't tragic. I've been here with you for so long.
Just waiting to come up for air.
Baby, this is what real fucking closure feels like.