Fallin tears, but why?

sometimes i wake up
with tear drops falling down like rain
When will it be over?
My life, the pain
When will I get away?
from this stress, this strain
I'm losing my mind
I'm going insane

                  Flooding emotion runs through my veins
                  As the time passes my
                  My faith slowly goes

sometimes I wonder: Am I dreaming?
Am I having a nightmare I can't let go?
I can't seem to stop these feelings
that are torturing my soul
sometimes I wish I would wake up
to find that it's all a lie
but if its not a dream,
I don't want to wake up,
I want to die

                  Im sittin at this laptop
                  not knowing where I will stay
                  I'm jus glad to have someone
                  that let me stay for some days
                  I know im supposed to be grateful,
                  but how can I be, while used
                  why is it, that to stay, i have to sleep with you?

My mother has no idea, no clue
she does not know what to do
Im out on the streets as a young fifteen
thank god for knowin people too

                  the tears they keep on coming
                  The pain it won't subside
                  The hate it keeps on growing
                  It strangling me inside

I still feel the agony of the love I lost
I hear those voices inside
I see the effects of when my sister hit me,
but I still love her all the while
It's hard for me to fall asleep
with no one in my life
I wish that I could find an angel
that would keep me by their side

                I try to think of all the things
                that I've been through in my life
                and I've came to the conclusion that it is a dream
                But the happiness has died
                Now, I wake up with tears falling down like rain
                Am I alone with what I'm feeling,
                Does anyone feel the same?

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I have these tear drops falling from my eyes, but still I have to ask "WHY?"