Kunstenaar heard the painful noise squeeking from the table. He had plenty of experience with this. Even as he was hearing it, his mind was rearranging it. It was no longer painful squeeking, but melodious love. He had found the filter to change the squeaking into the image, though not the substance, of love. The responsibility neatly and gently altered, and the seemingly selfless act of getting what he wanted made him feel spiritual. He was able to create his own elan.
He cooed back the language of attention replacing hurt, in his best Sinatra voice, filling the void with whipped cream from a can in the shape of unicorns, pixies and angels, all the while making promises of specialness he could believe long enough to sell. What can it hurt?
He had practiced so well that he no longer recognized the difference and believed himself to be spreading love... Johnny Appleseed of the New Age... A wondrous talent cultivated over years... the envy of many... objectified, deified, desired... an importer and exporter of dreams... a businessman of style... a success financially and socially... a cult leader... a playboy...
Even describing such a pitiable soul has me wretching in allergy. I have no quarrel and no buisiness with this man, but felt an irresistable urge to write an accurate and objective description just so I could say:
I would rather never wake up again than wake up as this man for one day.
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The truest love is uncomfortable... it is a devine chore... love that feels cozy and comfortable is always a lie - yes, always
This is my angry voice
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What made you so angry?
Now what on earth made you so angry? Kunstenaar is Afrikaans. Is this man Afrikaans? Is cozy love a lie? Is it? I have so many questions. Love cannot be practised. It just IS. No so? Perhaps you should add a line or two here.
Nevertheless: it is a captivating write, like all your work. You know how to express emotion. You are a word wizard. And: your anger is like a double-edged sword. Phewwww!
Love
Always Myra
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What made you so angry?
That was a little extra clue for you and Goddess of Illusion. My attempt to disguise my true intent and keep the meaning true. In most languages, the word was the same as in English, so I have the Afrikaans - English translator bookmarked, so I used it.
And yes, cozy love is codependence. In the real world, there are always new sacrifices to make and, because lovers push one another to grow, there's always a new person to get used to.
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