What For?

"Smother me out, just tell me
tell me that it was all a lie.
Murder me, rip apart from the inside
convince me that you'd wish I'd die
Knock me out, spit on me
Take everything that is left of my pride
Do all this, for my peace of mind
make sense of these dry tears I've cried.

I've used you, abused you
stollen all that's good in your heart
I've hurt you, the scars show through
you don't let them show, too deep inside
I've blamed you, when my own truth
That there is something wrong I see
Why do you, come back to
The plagued fiend that is me

For you, for me,
for us, you see,
would it not be better
if I would simply leave
For love, for one,
for life, undone
I always push away
but you keep coming back to me
For hope, for fear,
for ev,ery tear,
I grasp you so close
and cover up my misery
For luck, for fate,
for me, I hate
Paranoia always takes control
and I let the fear get the best of me"