Vegas was my fate...

If I could ask you
to trade lives with me for
just a second,
I reckon you'd quit asking me
so many questions
and you would no longer
wonder why
I can't just sit back
relax
and enjoy the ride...

In the past year and a half
the only time I've really laughed
and the only joy I've really had
is from a boy
who couldn't treat me anything
but bad.

Let's just start out
from the beginning
of how the nightmare started off
(to the point I'm getting).
Last March,
I took a bus for four days
from Tampa to Cali
wanting only to
spend time with my Dad
and dilly dally.

When I got there,
my father disowned me.
To him, I am just a junkie
and a whore, you see.
Stuck out there with no
place to go,
he kicked me out onto the streets,
so I had to really be a ho.
The only one that helped me was
a pimp
that I had to escape before I
ended up with a limp.

So I called Dan,
a man that I knew from my past.
I hauled ass to Vegas
before the pimp sold my ass.
But Dan was only out
to do the same,
so I figured out a way
to beat him
at his own game.

I met a wealthy buisness man
who helped me to relocate.
I tried not to love Vegas,
but it was too late.
I tried to leave Vegas,
but Vegas was my fate.

I started my life over,
went to detox and got sober,
found a boyfriend
who wouldn't screw me over,
got a high paying job,
tried to stay clear of the mob.

But it all changed one day
last June,
when I met Rob...

and then my fate was doomed,
because there was nothing I could do
to stop my feelings.
My heart jumped out and hit the cieling.
I fell so deep in love,
I thought he was sent to me
from the heavens above.

But he was the devil in disguise,
full of bad intentions and lies.
He was there to bring me down,
and turn a pretty girl
into a clown.
I dumped my boyfriend for him,
only to be abused for the next seven months.
In and out of the emergency room,
I thought it was love.
I fell too hard,
too soon.

I lost my apartment,my looks, my money,
and my cat,
all for this boy I thought was all that.
My whole family had turned their back on me.
I didn't understand,
no one to hold my hand.
Nothing to live for,
to everyone I was just a whore.
No place to call my home,
I was homeless and alone.

Rob was the only one
who had really made me happy.
But then he started treating me so crappy.
I couldn't take it anymore.
I was beat up, laying on the floor.

I tried to make it on my own,
but I was miserable without him,
so I picked up the phone.
But he wouldn't answer
(oh, the trials and tribulations of a dancer).
So I cracked the code to his voicemail
and changed the greeting to me saying goodbye.
I loved him, and it was no lie.
That night,
I almost died.

I agreed to give aprivate dance
to one of his associates
who said he wanted to help me
but was trying to get in my pants(obviously).
I needed the money so I wouldn't have to sleep on the street,
money to pay for a motel and get something to eat.
But for this money,
I saw the fires of hell
in Lamar's eyes.
I am lucky I am alive and well
because he tried to take my life that night.
He strangled me,
and I was too weak too fight.
By the grace of God
he let me live.
With my only breath
I said Jesus's name
and the rage inside Lamar was tamed.

He let me go,
what makes me so lucky, I don't know
why I didn't end up just another
dead ho in a desert hole.
My life flashed before my eyes
and there was no one to hear my cries.
When Rob finally found out ,
he didn't believe me,
he wouldn't comfort or relieve me,
HE DIDN'T CARE,
my last heartstrings he did tear.

I spendt Christmas in a homeless shelter.
My Christmas present was my life,
I owe it all to my angel in white.

I spendt the next year  mourning
in disbelief and pondering
why there was no warning
before I had to live through all this pain
caused by my mistakes and my lover's games.
A lesson that nearly cost me my life
but I had to learn to live with
a broken heart.
I can't be with the one for which my heart yearns.

Rob robbed me of so much that can't be given back.
The relationship led me astray, pulled me off my path,
threw me out of whack.
The truth is
he is ugly,heartless, and doesn't know what love is.
The truth is ugly,
but the truth is none other than this:
The best liars fool you because they lie
even when they kiss.

And thank God that Jesus is on my side,
because Galyn would have been greatly missed.