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conditional love

cant wash away the marks now
the light catches every single scar
every eye is torn my way
so now they know i went too far

i could have cut deeper than that
i could have kept going still and
you tell me why i do these things
why i cry, why i bleed
how i feel, why i hurt
but your the cause
you make things worse

[[pretty little scars reply
with last nights screams, last nights cries,
stupid poeple disagree
whats exactly wrong with me??]]

so tell me how i feel right now
check my wrist dad, judge my face
say what your thinking, spill theories out
about how you think ive been misplaced

break through the shield and barrier
placed to protect me from you
things you do, things you say
that shut me up and shut me down

[[i will not be broken,
i am the one that bleeds]]

on the ground
feeling the aftermath
of every hit, every word you said
that you wont ever take back
[[cause you meant it all]]

not accepting of who i am, what ive come to be
burning in my head old memories
a fuck up, a screw up, anorexic,
bulimic,imperfect,
not pretty enough
never thin enough

so im not pure,
ive made mistakes
and you throw them right back in my fucking face

you dont let it die, so here i cry
soaking up your words, choking on whats left of this
about what you want, and who you think i should be
and now i get it

not matter what i do
no matter who i am, or what i try to be...

ill never be good enough for you to love me

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  • heartofpainfultears
    June 8, 2007
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    nice job


  • night sky mystery
    June 8, 2007

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    wow i love this its realli gd yet its sadhope things are better. good luck in the contest,
    all the best *rose


  • a means to an end
    June 8, 2007
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    wow. i'm about to cry. this is so sad. i know exactly how you feel because i've been there with the cuting, i've been there never beiong good enough. still today for my mother and step father I am not good enough. i never will be. keep up hope things have to change becuase if they didnt everyone would die. great write


  • yesterdaysfeelings-
    May 13, 2007
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    wow..i love this...this is a fabulous write


  • goodquestionskippy
    March 13, 2007

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    i love it.... ive tried to write something like this before.. but it sucked.. you just said it for me.. i absolutly loved it!! greeeeaaaaaaaat!! i love ya!
    Joyce Ann


  • Perpetual-Kisses
    December 8, 2006
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    Excellent

    Hunni, I love you and I agree with Heather. He deserves to rot in hell for what he has done to you. If he won't give you the love you need . . . Fudge, Heather, and I'll try to fufill the emptyness. Nice poem it really shows your pain. I love you hunni!

  • Arkangelkarn
    November 22, 2006
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    not my fault


  • drunknmindsobrheart
    November 22, 2006

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    pebbles ur dad is a complete asshole who deserves to burn in hell for what hes put you through


    who cares what he thinks


    me & david& megan WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU !!!!!


    • Logans-Mommy
      November 22, 2006
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      by he, meaning my b/f.....


    • Logans-Mommy
      November 22, 2006
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      ik, so like.. my face has this red thing on it and it hurts and i blame him... girr...he said its not his fault,

      BUT ITS HIS FUALT


      COMPLETELY


      love, jenn


      • drunknmindsobrheart
        November 23, 2006
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        no matter what happens pebbles im ALWAYS here

        and just think 7 months and you'll be here in my arms prolly both of us crying bcs we miss each other that much

        and you know damn well ill never let you go

        i will not lose you again dear,if worse comes to worse i will kidnap you ....lol...living in my closet...hehehehe

        you are my life
        you must already know this
        lol

        I love you ...and I will always 'n' forever love you
        pebbles ,my twin,my wifey,my other half,my best friend

        I LOVE YOU

        loveALWAYS
        monkey

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