Reflect Your Soul

When you look at me,
tell me,
what do you see?
Can you look into my eyes and see my soul, my whole
Being. And can you see why I cry at night?
I wish everything would be alright
but its not.
The world is worn and torn down.
I stay up, I cant sleep
Im haunted by my dreams
I cry out to the angels above for help
"Help Me!"
But they cant hear me
I slit my wrists to know Im alive
I cry when I drag the blade down
deeper and deeper into my skin
The blood seeps out from under the knife
My life is a pain
I cant gain a step if Im held back
Let me go, Let my fly.
I try
But I cant seem to grasp your poor perception of reality.
I scream, "I need to know! I need to feel!"
So I slice, I dice, I bleed
I feed off the darkness.
It hides my lies, my secrets.
I have not one but two skeletons in my closet
Scars deeper than the eye can see
You dont know what its like to be me.
I walk with my head down so I dont have to face the world which inflicts pain on my soul.
Im numb inside, no love to behold.
I know I can be happy, I know I can be free. But when,
When will my pain end?
Will I ever be alright?
Will I ever be able to sleep at night?
Thats all I want, a good nights sleep.
Can I heal, can I seal these self inflicted wounds
deep inside my body?
I can. I can see now that I live, I give
my pain, my darkness, my heart
to a box and hide it,
lock it up with a key and swallow it.
No one needs to see me.
Why should I frown,
And let my walls fall down?
Just for more pain?
I dont want it.
I dont need it.
I try
I strive for the inner will to be
Please! Someone save me!
I wish to stop and know that I am not just a hollow hole
I have a heart, I have a soul.
I feel.