BACKGROUND AND SETTING: Elle, the speaker in the monologue, is in the family's basement with her little brother, Sam-- a naïve, willful ten year old who wants nothing more to be a “grown up”. Elle is solemn, slightly bitter teenager with a rocky history and a lot of painful memories
I guess—I guess I wish I’d never gone and grew up. Don’t rush it Sam, honest to God it’s not worth it… I want things to be prettier than they are. I don’t want to be jaded and angry all the time. I wish I were six again, Sam! When I was a little kid, I didn’t know! I didn’t know what the world was like. Really like. I was blind—I never thought I’d turn out this way! Hell, Sam, I didn’t think—and I was happy, really happy, not knowing. I miss it. You know what else kids don’t know? They don’t know how not to love. I want to love again…But I can’t. These walls were my kingdom and I was the princess, and I was going to live happily ever after. Where is it, Sam? Whatever happened to that? I’ll tell you. Happily ever after never happened and it never will! Not for me. I grew up. And in the real world—this godforsaken, hellhole excuse for reality—a grown up has responsibilities. I’m seventeen, Sam! I don’t want to grow up. I shouldn’t have to! I want to be six again. I want to be innocent. I don’t want to know Mom can’t pay the bills, or that my big sister deals drugs! I don’t want to know. God, you’ve got it easy. You think you want to grow up, and know things, Sam—you don’t! It’s hard…So hard. Don’t lose it, kid. Sometimes knowledge isn’t power. Sometimes it’s just a killer weapon waiting to be unleashed. So close your eyes. See no evil. Shut your mouth. Speak no evil. Cover your ears. Hear no evil. And you’ll be fine.
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Written November 15th, 2006
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Well, I guess that writer's block is gone. I just recently started coming out of mine. I felt like I was standing there watching you take sam by the shoulders and tell them never to grow up. To not take for granted that ignorance is bliss. I like it. (As if you couldn't tell)
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Garden of Eden
This was very good. The whole time I was listening to her tell Sam he should stay in the dark. She keeps letting in bursts of light. Reminded me so much of the Garden of eden story. Adam and Eve are innocent but the want to know. They eat from the Tree of Knowledge and suddenly all of their innocence is lost.
Keep writing.
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thank you so much
Hey thanks for your comments
and the applause i really appreciate it, and I'm sorry I took so long to reply, AP didn't notify me.
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This is great, the way that the monologue slowly drifts from conversation to stream of conciousness, and the whole irony that by imploring Sam not to lose his innocence she is effectively taking it from him without realising it...it's heartbreaking, it really is, especially as she's speaking the truth - the older you get, the more you're aware of all the horrors of the adult world. Well done
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thanks!!
Thanks so much for the applaud and comments and I apologize for taking so long to reply-- AP didnt notify me of your comment.
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I thought this was very well wrote. Elle begins talking to Sam but then seems to go off in her thoughts. I found the monologue quite good and I am glad I read it. Great work and I hope to read more soon!
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awesome thanks for the applause!
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so straightforward
blunt. really blunt.
but it's good.
is this like.. real? you and sam
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Thanks!!!
no, s'not real. Though I do know a sam(a girl, however). lol.
thanks for the applauses!
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amazing!!
As a actress myself, I could really see myself getting into this character. She just opens up her heart and tells what she's been hiding inside for so long. Beautiful.
Stephanie
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wow
I can relate to everything in here... In spite of the fact that I'm fifteen and have no siblings. But everything else is right on cue. This was extremely well written, and my favorite part was 'Sometimes it’s just a killer weapon waiting to be unleashed. So close your eyes. See no evil. Shut your mouth. Speak no evil. Cover your ears. Hear no evil. And you’ll be fine.' bit, because there's so many people I'd like to say this to.
Again, well done!
Tamaska
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I think you have captured a universal sorrow here. The lost innocence of youth plagues us all. I have a suggestion though. At the end, I think you could do without the see/speak.hear no evils. I think it's even more powerful (and the message is implied) if you just say "So close your eyes. Shut your mouth. Cover your ears. And you'll be fine." Those words still show us what she means. As long as he exposes himself to nothing, he'll remain happy. Well-penned. --->pixxie<---
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I thought for sure I'd already commented on this. Guess not, though. Hmm...anyway, NOW I SHALL HOP TO IT!
I like the bitterness reflected in Elle's words. You almost don't need the background information to know who the characters are and what each of them is dealing with. There's something about this that really reaches out and strangles my heart. I suppose it's just that I can relate. And yup...that's all I gots to say. GOOD WRITE!
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wow- this is so blunt and to the point. yet also so true. very nicly done. i would say more but the people who have already reviewed have summed it up so well. great write and keep writting.
Claire
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wow...
this is a very powerful mono... done by the person and it could brind many to tears....i have to say that this is the first mono i read on ap...it was refreshing to not just read poetry..acting is a major part of my life...i plan on not going to high school w/the rest of my friends to go to preforming arts acadamy......this was an amazing mono keep it up..
love ya
lala/ sherpal/ wierd-o/ stupidly smart
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awesome!
thanks for your comments and applause overload!!! i love acting as well and actually decided to homeschool so that i could have more time for it. anyways, good luck w/ the performing arts school!
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I love this. This is fantstic. It's really and truelly amazing. Everyone at one point or another like the commenter above says. Feels like this. We get to a certian age and we are like " No, I wanna be this age and not my age.. I wanna be immature and be care free. I wanna feel no pain. I wanna go back to when I was young and all I cared about was the silly things in life ect"
You have got everybodys feelingsw captured in one. Well done I love it
Keep it up
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oh wow, thanks! And I apologize for taking so long to reply-- AP ate my comments again. *sigh* anyways, thanks so much!
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This is a really blunt and brutally honest monologue. You can feel the harshness of Elle's thoughts more and more as she speaks to Sam. She gets lost in her own thoughts as she feels bitter in life and its ways at that moment. Nicely presented, and an understandable piece. A lot of us teens begin to feel this way at some point, maybe not for all the same reasons, but the same feelings come about. Good write.
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thanks!
I appreciate the comments and i apologize for taking so long to reply-- AP struck again and ate comments. -_- anyways thanks again!
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