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A New Woman Born From Hatred

The hardest thing,

that I have had to do
Is trying to forget,

the image of you

I sense a bit of hostility,

coming from your mouth
Your intentions not so clear,

until you went further south
You took my life,

not one second too late
You took something from me,

leaving me with no sign of fate

You took a part of me,

that can not be given back
All because your decision that night,

was to hold me down with a smack
You stomped on my hand,

and slapped me across the face
You stuck your fingers,

in the wrong place

You made me scream,

out of pure fright
I can't believe you did this,

without an even fight
You punched me again,

and told me keep it shut
I reached for the phone,

as you punched me in the gut

Your friends thought it was funny,

I thought it to be a shame
Your body lay on top of mine,

I no longer felt the same
I hate the way you look at me,

I hate the way you glare
I hate everything about you,

and your evil stare

I haven't forgotten,

all the things that you have done
Your presence that lingers,

I now begin to shun
I used to think it was all my fault,

I used to take the blame
But every where I look,

I still feel the shame

I have grown up now,

I am no longer that little girl
I cannot see your face no more,

my toes no longer curl
I can no longer see the image,

that always played in my head
I can now rest peacefully,

as I lay silently on my bed

The hardest thing,

that I have had to do
Is trying to forget,

the image of you

© Chantelle Tessmer, All rights reserved

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It took me a very long time to finally get this out in the open ... I kept it to myself for so long ... and one day a friend of mine on AP told me that I should at least try ... I didn't want sympathy and I didn't want to be judged ... I just wanted to be happy again ... So here it is ... My rape story
Written November 14th, 2006

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  • LaylaLace
    February 13, 2008
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    Thank you for sharing your story with us.


  • ExpectingMommy18
    February 7, 2008

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    well you wrote this very good the ryhming was good and although the subject was i liked the poem and I hope you can find some happiness,best of wishes and good luck in the contest


  • hopelessly-broken
    August 1, 2007

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    wow... hun. this is so beautiful!!! so painful!!!! i loved it. thats horrible. i could never go into that much detail about what happend to me. but i am ever so proud of this poem you rote! to have the courage to write it. to accept what happend and move on... wow!! well done!!! i do look upto you. thats amazing


    keep up the amazing writting

    much love, love HB
    xoxoxoxoxx


  • xxRainbowDawnxx
    July 18, 2007

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    I'm glad you managed to get this out in the open. It really does help to write about these things as then you know and find out that you aren't the only one and that people do care how you think and feel and what happens to you. I know that in a less extreme case. Thanks for sharing your heart and soul. x


  • badddgirl
    July 5, 2007

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    Congradulations for letting that finally get out, I hold a secret from back when I was 9.
    I really don't want to say.

    Your friends thought it was funny, I thought it to be a shame
    Your body lay on top of mine, I no longer felt the same
    I hate the way you look at me, I hate the way you glare
    I hate everything about you, And your evil stare


    Yes this is personal to me as well.
    Thanks and good luck!

  • xxRainbowDawnxx
    June 22, 2007
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    Well of course a lot of hosility and well horrible thoughts run here whilst reading this. I can only imagine what this kind of thing would do to your mind... I thought at some parts it was a little apologetic, hope this isn't about you personally... If it is, I'm sorry to hear about this but don't blame yourself. Try and look for a silver lining, carry on writing and stick by your friends whenever you feel self hatred.


  • sweetestkiss1985
    June 19, 2007

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    This was very hard for me to read. For I too was rapped when I was 3 and 4. I truley reach out to you in times of need. If you ever need to talk I'm here. Good luck in the contest and thanx for entering.


  • leander Moderators member
    February 15, 2007

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    What a very sad story you have written here and I'm very sorry you have to deal with these kind of things
    It's been 3 years and 1 day now that my best friend has been raped too. I just can't understand how someone can do this to someone else...
    You've expressed yourself very well, and you've grown to be a very strong woman. Your words show that!
    Best of luck in the contest!


  • Delrondu
    January 29, 2007
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    Good write. i like the title very much. that's what got me really interested to see where you might take this. it flowed really well, although sometimes too well - there were a couple of lines i wished it didn't rhymed that way but nonetheless, the whole piece worked. thanks for entering.


  • duckonahockeypuck
    January 16, 2007
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    The pain...good write


  • Grenade Jumper
    January 9, 2007

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    This is an amazing poem. It could have been really lame, but it's not at ALL. The words are so powerful and very well written. I love it. You have serious talent.


    • Asylaarix
      January 9, 2007
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      Thank you so much for your comment ... That was so touching ... and I really appreciate your support ... Like I said before ... it's really hard to go through ... but I finally got it out ... and it's been great with all the support I have recieved from it ... much luviez ... sparkeh


  • Jimmah324
    January 9, 2007

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    I'm gonna agree with Daisybee
    that took alot of doin to write that and put it out there
    I just wanna hug you >.<
    great write

    • Asylaarix
      January 9, 2007
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      Thank you so much ... It hurt so bad that night ... and it has hurt even more since then ... Trying to get over it has been a nightmare ... and even though it's been 9 years ... i am still very much pained ... but I have my good times and my bad ... and it was daisybee that told me to try and get it out ... thanks to her I was able to do so ... thank you very much for your very sweet comment


  • americanrebel
    December 11, 2006

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    This piece kind of makes you sound like a phoenix and how it rises from the ashes and its magnifid by the new woman born from something else good job


  • my savior-pedro
    December 11, 2006
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    such a nice peice. good luck!


  • tritium
    November 24, 2006

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    This poem was breath taking, I absolutly loved the use of imagery. The last line, 'That image I will not rewind', left me to ponder, and it really closed the entire poem. I also like the use of rhyming, not to many people did it this contest. Good Luck.

  • benafim
    November 15, 2006
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    very fine work... dark sad and strong

  • tranquil-beauty
    November 15, 2006
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    Outstanding piece of work!! It really gets the reader in the mind of the "character" and evokes true emotion. Wow!


  • daisybee
    November 14, 2006
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    Couragous

    this was a couragous piece of writing, you are much stronger than you think. now it's out there, and it took guts. i think the last line is especially poignaint. I will not rewind. i think that is the key to moving on. Huge hugs- I am very proud that you shared this piece, and hope it was a carthetic experience.

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