I'm Fine

It’s been so long
Since I’d opened up like that

Actually analysed my emotions,
And realised
I'm not as “happy” as I thought I was..

I always say,
“I'm good thanks”
Because “I'm fine” is famous
As a line of liars.

It's been almost three weeks
Since I last cried..
I’ve worked so hard
To become numb to life.

Today, I saw my match.
I pulled him to the side,
And we walked and talked.

I saw through his layers,
And realised the truth.
He told me of his troubles,
And I advised him, as I know best.

Then we talked about me.
Something I find hard to do these days.

He’s seen my strength,
And he told me how he deals
With his emotions.

We have a lot in common..
He opened a can of worms,
I’ve kept hidden for so long,
Not even letting MYSELF
Peek in.

So here I sit,
Talking to ‘friends’..


“How are you?”
“I'm pretty good. Saw an old mate which was awesome. Yourself?”


I'm getting pretty good
At fabricating my responses.
Maybe my punishments don’t fit my crimes,
But I'm not going to let that affect me.

I’ll just sit here,
And say I'm fine.

Because if I say it enough times,
By the end of the day,
I’ll believe it,
And I can go back to living my life..

..Blindly..