Being the Alcoholic that I am, I have to live one day at a time.
Looking forward to only the next breath sometimes.
Going to meetings to get my daily spiritual fix.
Hearing the words that God has chosen to speak to me.
I must listen to others to hear what God is saying.
God does not speak to me directly, He speaks to through others,
through the ones at meetings, and you here at AP.
I must keep an open mind, listen for what He is trying to tell me,
sometimes it's murky and not so clear, sometimes it is glaringly obvious.
Sometimes I don't like what I hear, but such is life, we do what we can.
Fear , anger and chaos used to rule my life, this is no longer true today.
God will do for me what I was unable or unwilling to do for myself.
It took but one simple thing to do this. I surrendered.
I surrendered my will and my Life over to the care of God.
I pray every day and every night for God's will to work in my life,
and for Him to relieve me of my insanity. It has worked now for over 2 years.
Today is 'The only day in existence' for me, Oh, I can plan and I can dream,
but what it all comes down to is, what I want and what God's will for me is, are two sometimes totally different things. There is a line from a song I Love, written and sung by Van Zant, the song titled 'Help Somebody' this is the line: "And if you wanna hear God laugh, tell him your plans" He saved me from death and myself 16 years ago when I got hit by that car and broke my leg, He saved me 2 years ago when He made me realize I didn't need to drink anymore.
The blessings of a sober life are just too numerous to mention nor could I even come close to listing them. I became a Godfather two days ago, two years ago I could not be trusted with car keys, now I am entrusted with a child's life if it should become necessary. What a blessing. I am blessed with a Love that transcends any I have ever had before. What a blessing. I am blessed with peace of mind unlike any I have ever known. What a blessing. Most of all I am surrounded by friends both physical and cyber that make all my so called friends that have gone before pale in comparison.
This life I have chosen to lead is the greatest Blessing of all.
Today is 'The only day in existence' for me.
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Written for Lisa Lindsey's Catch the Soaring Star Challenge
Phrase: 'The only day in existence'
Official entry.
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If you feel you might have a problem with drinking or drugs, the chances are you do.
Call your local AA office and find out for yourself.
Author notes
I am thankful for Today, for it is all I have...
Written November 5th, 2006
A contest entry
- Positivity Stemming from Addiction by aslanlight.
740 points, ended July 8, 2007, 11 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
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There's so much wisdom in this and I grabbed a gem on the way through. I'm struggling with the idea of giving up smoking because I have to (illness) and your lines below really speak to me:
'God will do for me what I was unable or unwilling to do for myself.
It took but one simple thing to do this. I surrendered'
Now all I need to do is figure out how to surrender it! Well I did it with heroin and alcohol but this is tougher. I got so much more from your write besides this. Thankyou!
Peace Georgia
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Absolutely splendid...being a recovering alcoholic/addict, I love these words...its not just a program for me, its a way of life...I am learning so many things from so many people and its all so fresh and this is a terstament of the "we" program and how it works...one day at a time...excellent piece...and nice to meet ya....
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Power packed
I admire you so much for your achievement. If only those who feel really low at this moment could suddenly find the strength to Fin that power which flows from the hand of God.
You haev expressed yourself so well here. HUGS
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outstanding
My friend I understand your lament and fight.
As for myself I fight my demons also...it's an uphill battle and one that will take strength...it's not an impossible path...for to survive it has to be taken. Smile Scott...David -
I am so glad you are willing to share....great job here, Scott...hugs & smiles, Terry
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This write portrays strength on so many levels. I was born into a long line of alcoholic relatives. The road to recovery is hard but yet one that is of great rewards and success. I have no doubts that you will make it. Stay strong in spirit, strong in writing.
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Good luck to you. I hope each new day is a good one for you. Your words were great and truthful.
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