what if i'm like you

i am two different people
i'm not myself anymore
one side of me, wants to go out and have fun
the other wants to stay behind a closed door

i can't do what i want to do
it's ripping me in half
i find myself being miserable
when all i want to do, is laugh

laugh away all my troubles
smile away all my pain
dance away all my anger
and think of what i have got to gain

a life time worth of hell
also a life time full of joy
you can't have one without the other
but, all of it i want to enjoy

i know it's not going to happen
you can't have bad, without good
but what the hell am i supposed to do
when all i get told is you should

you should have done this
you shouldn't have done that
why didn't you listen to me
you really are a prat

no cares about what i want to do
what i have to say
i try to explain
and you just push me away

why won't you listen to me?
why don't you care?
why do you think you're better at everything?
when you were never there

you tell me i'm stupid
that i can't cope
you've never believed in me
and around your neck i want to see rope

i want to see you hang
for everything you put me through
all's you think of is yourself
but you won't say it's true

they say hell is a terrible place
when really it is all around
spending one day with you
and i bet it can be found

you are the reason i am worthless
and unhappy every day
you are the one who makes me sad
and wish i could fly away

anything to get away from you
to make me feel good
for a time when i can say i did it better than you
and i know i could

i'm never going to be the parent that you were
who never cared about his child
and instead of being home, being a father
was out there running wild

i won't use my child for spite
towards me i hope they will never hate
i will be a better parent than you
you just watch and wait

i am going to be a good mum
i'll try my hardest at that
i'm not going to hurt my child
unlike you, you fucking twat!

my life isn't over
a new chapter is just beginning
and i can't wait for it to start
cause i am going to be winning

winning my life back
that you took away from me
i'm going to be happy and my life whole
just wait and you'll see