Mystified

Life used to be significant
When it didn’t feel vacant
When it was a mystery
Never recognized the misery

So young I never understood
Never even thought I would
But suddenly the world is big
Never saw I didn’t fit

It’s slipping all away from me
The composure and serenity
Don’t want to see the end embrace
The lies I couldn’t seem to face

Then I didn’t even know
Didn’t think I’d ever grow
Is this how I pictured life?
To end the peace begin the strife

All the thoughts race through my mind
I can’t believe I didn’t find
The meaning then when it was there
It doesn’t matter now who cares?

They’re all about the mystery
Asking questions, who are we?
Does anyone know why I’m here?
I don’t even care to hear

I just want to slip away
Live my life a different way
Forget about my troubled heart
And feel the fear just tear apart

I look at all the photographs
The memories that made me laugh
And now they bring tears to my eyes
‘Cause when I laugh I always cry

Child memories so clear
Suddenly just disappear
I can’t look back I’m moving on
And soon enough I will be gone

Is it because of all the pain?
Or is it ‘cause I can’t explain?
So many questions, don’t reply
‘Cause deep down I have known why

I never wanted to grow up
But now its here I can’t mess up
I can’t just mope around and cry
It’s time to spread these wings and fly

And I don’t want the answer, I
Just want to live and be surprised
Whatever comes may come my way
I am going to live today

It’s time to learn and live and die
So when I’m gone I won’t miss life
I’ll have done just what I should
Then I can say I understood