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Heroin Boy

A anarchic disaster,
A disillusionment
Of your
Soul's malnourishment
Distraught and rampant
Vacant in your mind

The tumbleweed follows
Your never-ending footprints
A cookie cutter's nightmare

The choir forms an orchestra
Raining on your parade
The vagabond vermin say,
Shh

"Heroin boy
Walking through the door
Bouncing off the walls
And the floor
Taking off his belt
Taking off his pants
Filling up the bathtub
Getting read to go in
For a swimmm...
Singing,
I don't exist
I don't exist"

Nihilism,
Hello, are you there?
Can you hear me?

The static drowns out the sound
Vagabond vermin snickers
Reminiscing of pastimes
Of eating shadows
And vomiting hallucinations
Straight into your veins

(Can you hear me now?)

The colonies come,
They say the heater's broken
In their pilgrim huts
It's low on nuclear power
And the roach motels are melting
Dripping from the ceiling
Drowning in the churning

The static drowns out the sound
Pulsing with every heartbeat
Your conscience knocks..
You on your knees
You beg
You scream
Hiding in your cold sweats
A knife to the
Lincoln tattoo
On your wrist

The politicians come
Carrying lunacy toxins,
Home remedies and aphrodisiacs
The hypocrisy says,
Shh

"Heroin boy
He walked through the door
And he was screaming
And I was like
'Why's you screaming?
Like it's the end of the world?'
And he was like
'Well it is.'
And I was sitting in the corner
With my pants down
And I was sure that someone
Was blowing up balloons
And it was red and orange"

Helium consuming your soul
Your mind pops
Like a bubble on Solar power
Praying to the Gods
Saying you didn't mean
For night to come so soon
Summer was kissing you
last Wednesday

You bounce in your seat
Clap your hands
Can't hear anymore
Vagabond vermin covers your ears
Says you wasted your nine lives
You devoured your soul
Says you asked for Mother Mary's
Last frown of the century
An expression with no remorse
just ones blatant disgust
The rotting cathedral says,
Shh

"Heroin boy
Started taking off his belt
Started taking off his pants
Started taking off his shoes
Started filling up the bathtub
Getting ready to go in for a swim
I says,
'Nooo
You're gonna drooown'
He says,
'No,
I can't drown'

Simply because..."

The wise men came
Only to realize
They aren't so wise
They're weird in their handcuffs
Trapped in their own shackles
Can't even drown out the sound
Like static can
Like vagabond vermin can

You're a walkin' syringe
Puffed out and spurtin' knowledge
A regular Biblical mess
Covering the floor in theories
And burned Gospels
The numb prophet says,

"Shh

A man destined to hang
Can never drown
A man destined to hang
Can never drown"

Vagabond vermin says,
Can I repeat my order?
Into that barely breathing
Barely hearing
Broken
Shattered
Used
HoldingxontoxlifexIxcan'txfeelxpainxanymore
Intercom thing thing?

"A man destined to hang
Can never drown
A man destined to hang
Can never drown
A man destined to hang
Can never drown"

Author notes

For Johnathan

Quotes are from..

Regina Spektor - Daniel Cowman

This is still one of my favorite poems.

And since you asked WHY the artist (Regina Spektor) inspires me it's because...well, I really don't know. I just absolutely love her lyrics. They have this kind of delirious, absolutely crazy, creative and often humorous quality to them that inspires me I guess.

That's really the best answer I can give.

Well, maybe not.
But that's the best I can give for now.




Written October 12th, 2006

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  • Epilogue
    August 31, 2007

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    lol! it is so funny- i was actually listening to Daniel Cowman while i read this. I absolutely fucking L.O.V.E. regina!!! she's my fav. And you poem- coincidentally- is also one of my faves (even before reading author's notes- i am not bias) But i have to say one of my favorites by her is "consequence of sounds" only b/c i can't sing it... lol. i do so love her quirky lyrics.
    "(I am) 20 years strangers looking into each other's eyes
    (and i have) never truly hated anyone or anything."
    ~elizabeth~


    • AshtrayBaby
      August 31, 2007
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      Ooo!

      I LOVE Consequence of Sounds. That is an awesome, awesome song.
      I also love Back Of A Truck and Pavlov's Daughter. Yeah, those are my favorites.

      I'm glad you liked it. <3


  • PrettyRagDoll
    November 28, 2006

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    Awesome

    I loved the insanity behind your words. Using quotes from a song is a good idea, one I would not have thought of (thank you for crediting her by the way). Heroin is a drug of insanity; I think you caught that mindset wonderfully. The title of the write set-up the rest of the poem, and comparing the first and last lines made me shiver. There is something sad about "an anarchic disaster" who is "destined to hang" so "can never drown". Thank you for entering my contest and thank you for sharing your write.
    -d0ll


    • AshtrayBaby
      November 28, 2006
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      I'm glad you liked the idea and my poem. Yeah. I started using song quotes a while before I wrote this. It just seemed like such a good idea when you're as lazy as I am. Kidding, kidding. While I was writing this I kept getting the song stuck in my head so I decided to put the quotes in it and VOILA! Masterpiece Theatah.



      - LT


  • wakingdevil
    November 22, 2006

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    It was certainly long but good too.Perhaps some more rhymes would help the poem.Thanks for entering and best of luck


  • AshtrayBaby
    October 27, 2006
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    Thank you so much! Yes, I'm really proud of this write and your words mean so much to me. I'm really very flattered.

  • junkyardking
    October 27, 2006
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    superior

    incredible piece of writing. I was speachless. My writing is a wanna-be of your masterfulness. I loved this poem and it really had me thinking. I loved the wording the repetitions, everything. I cannot say there is one thing i liked about it, because it all is wonderful.


  • AshtrayBaby
    October 26, 2006
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    God! THANK YOU! I haven't won a contest in forever. And that's so amazing that you're speachless. I so love you right now.


  • --Shelbeh--
    October 26, 2006
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    i am shocked. this is so good, the best i ahve read so far from the entries in ym contest, and on Allpoetry itsself. i am speachless. the only thing i can say is you got a minimum of 3rd place in this contest!


  • AshtrayBaby
    October 26, 2006
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    Thank you very much! I'm very glad that you thought it was impressive and thought provoking. That's all I'm trying to do. Manipulate words into lines that form an amazing and abstract poem that makes people impressed and want to read more of my work. Anyways, thank you again! By the way, how did you think the flow was? I've been reading it over a couple of times and in certain lines, well certain stanzas, I end up losing my breath but maybe that's just me.

  • Chained Hawk
    October 25, 2006
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    It's deep and thought provoking. I liked it. And really liked the way you described the drugs effects through all the descriptive language. It was impressive which is obviously always a good thing when reading someone elses work. Much better than most I've read since finding this site.


  • AshtrayBaby
    October 21, 2006
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    Thannkkk you! Thank you! Thank you SO much! W00t. Now 30 people have me on their favorites! YAY!


  • love tank x
    October 21, 2006
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    WOW...this is crazy. Crazy GOOD.. It's so amazing, I couldn't take my eyes off of it. I'm definitely adding you to my favorites. Keep it up and good luck in the contest<3


  • AshtrayBaby
    October 16, 2006
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    Thank you so much. I'm SO glad that you were blown away by it. Hopefully, not too far. Cause you know... there's no place like home. Atleast, that's what they say.


  • spot the pink
    October 16, 2006
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    i was utterly blown away when i read this, its wonderful, i think you used the quotes really effectively, i love this poem!would make a pretty good song too actually...
    im off to investigate more of your work now


  • AshtrayBaby
    October 14, 2006
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    Aye, thank you! Everything you don't understand in this is a hallucination. The quotes after 'says' (vagabond vermin says etc) are like the hallucinations telling a story about the hallucinator. <3 In my other poem which I mentioned in the author's comment is sort of like this but it's about a girl on morphine and this is a guy or rather my bestfriend on heroin. It's confusing but it really doesn't require that much thought. He has a Lincoln tattoo that's why I put that in there but to the person reading it fits well as a hallucination. I love that part too. I edited it so many times but I finally made it PERFECT. <3 Glad you liked it! Very glad.

    Oh but other things in this are just views of my friend and my views of things. Mainly just religion, political, and society bashing.


  • AnmcRylty
    October 14, 2006
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    This is effin' amazing!!!
    I was blown away reading this, and as i read on it kept getting better.
    "The static drowns out the sound
    Pulsing with every heartbeat
    Your conscience knocks
    You on your knees
    You beg
    You scream
    Hiding in your cold sweats
    A knife to the
    Lincoln tattoo
    On your wrist"~ I love this part. I don't know what it is about it but I just kept readin it over and over...
    I'll have to ckeck out that song to, but brava, this is truly perfect, I hope you do well in the contest..

    Brava
    blu3-eyed AKA Kyle


  • AshtrayBaby
    October 12, 2006
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    I'm reading it over and everything and it sort of sounded better while I was writing it because I had the tune stuck in my head but if people don't know the tune it sounds kinda lame. =[ But I'm glad you liked it.


  • VampireShadow
    October 12, 2006
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    Wow, this was really uber good...and see, you can write long stuff, no prob!!! I think it was better than Bedtime for Psychotherapy...So this was your Heroin idea? NIce. It was really good, deep. I liked how you kept repeatin "shhh". I <3 it!!!

    <333 Jess

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