What do you do when you dream every night
about a love you want to forget?
The dreams that mock you, taunt you and tease you.
With your own subconscious insecurity.
Every night I see his face, and there's nothing I can do.
I....dont know what to do.
I see a building and he's there, towering.
I climb to find him, my damned heart leaps everytime,
why won't he leave me alone?
Isn't one heart-break enough?
He's there and so is she, a friend, a love of another kind.
They laugh, joke. What can I do?
They are together, I hear their song in the background.
He was supposed to be mine, he said so himself.
I guess I am that blind, I can't see whats right on front of me,
I follow him, across the ledge. Looking down theres nothing.
I'm scared but I follow in hope he will love me.
He laughs...I can't do a thing.
I'm paralysed by fear and warmed by a false love,
he holds his hand to me to guide me. Should I trust him?
We walk to the wall, enter the building again.
I see a room, we walk into it together. She's there.
Always with him. I feel like a child. What can I do?
I try to impress and always fail. This is my dream,
and yet I can't control what happens. The fear breaks in,
as Im forced to escape across the ledge,
or witness my own heart break again, because he's with her.
I'm alone, I'm scared, I'm hurt. I wake.
He's in my head and there's nothing I can do.
Author notes
I don't care about this poem being good. It's something I had to get out of my system. I recalled this dream whe I was walking upstairs in a large building, I now have a fear of heights because of the ledge. Damned assosiative fear! Let me know guys...This is all truthful.
Written October 11th, 2006
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- The Experience That Changed You by loveyourfate.
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thanks for your entry. Certainly original
!! Your last stanza I loved best. Great poem.
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&& Darling, she cries tears of anguish every night, trying desperately to rid you from her mind, but you are tangled up in every thought that she has. ((And baby, don't you see, you are killing her in the end)) Try as she might, you, boy, her love, is haunting every minute that passes slowly, slower, slowest.... And in the darkest moments, as truth unveils itself and proves to be a fraud, you take her hand and your *promises were always meant to be broken*, because in the end, you lead her to your happiness. && she cant help but die a little, watching you so happy with your love, you love, your lovely, as she sits in the corner witnessing it as if she never once belonged in your arms, as if she never once belonged in your mind ((or in your heart))
((And baby don’t you know, she just can’t take it anymore))
Yes, yes, sweetheart, I feel it too....
♥
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This is a very good poem, i bit hard for me to read but that's my fault, i write in ryhme and typically try to find a ryhme scheme thats not there so nothing against you...
But being able to admit your faults and not being able to fix them is a common feeling i try to overcome so i definitly relate here, i wish i could give you advice but the subject at hand could be different from how i percieve it
Always keep writing you have a true talent for it
Derek -
THIS POEM IS MORE THAN GOOD, IT IS BRILLIANT. This is a write fool of love and emotional frustration. I know this soooo well. I know this tooo well!!! One of my favorite writes yet!! Great Job....
My fav. line here is..(I try to impress and always fail.)
Wow!! that sums me up...WOW!! Great powerful explosion of feelings in my book!!!!
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