I feel guilty today
because im depressed again
scared to speak of my thoughts
of which theres no end
feeling the need to cut
are thoughts i fight away
but if i told you this
tell me, would you stay..?
i feel guilty again
as im holding that knife
it just seems so easy
to end this life
constant emotions
flying round in my head
but if it wasnt for you
i think id already be dead
but i guess this is normal
and i'll just ignore it all
wait till that day
when i have another "fall"
Author notes
Yeap, another poo peice, but like i said...gonna put up any random crap i have recently. many random thoughtage i say... ohwell...
Written October 9th, 2006
What did you think
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Dark
I like it though. I used to have those days everyday now it's slowed some... it's like every other day or so now. LOL sorry.
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its real. thats all that matters. i have a heap of crap i dont say coz i worry about what other people are going to think. this hits where it hurts and thats what its supposed to do. well done.
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i like
deep.dark.Just right!
Dont we all have feelings like this?
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i loved this....i can so relate to this....want to see more.
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I love this poem. the more you can relate to a poem the more youll like it, or at least it seems that way. i have a few friends that im really close with and they dont kno how often i think of suicide or that i cut and they really have no idea how much they help me make it through every day
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keep fighting it
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Buon Lavoro
You too? These dark thoughts haunt so many. Very well written and good use of capturing the actual morality of it. These thoughts consume the best of us... leaving us open to ridicule and misunderstandings...
Keep up the good work.
~*xxAngelicWingsxx*~ -
Another poo piece? lol. I think you done a good job expressing the feelings that so many do face. Most people writing of cutting end up sounding whiny but this came across very well. I think you done good.
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So sad and dark. I liked this piece. Those random thoughts and feelings have to come out and can be troubling, so let them out. Excellent writing...
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i also want to thank you for your comment. it meant so much to me. and as for you just keep up your good emotional writting
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emotional
this is so sad, but i can relate to you. life can make you feel that way, but keep your head up. and hopefully when you have that next fall, you'll be twice as strong as you were before
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Oh my God. I feel the exact same way especially lately. Just remember one thing when your holding that knife, someone always cares... Even if they are in another country. I will always care for a human life. And to waste a life is the greatest affence of all.
Love Alwayz,
Jessi
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I think the same thing, it would be so easy, but I don't think my friends would appreciate it, or whomever you are with.And, always search for hope,its there, you just have to find it!
Very well written, I enjoyed reading this.
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this was amazing i know how it feels..i loved it
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fantastic write!
I love this poem. I have many falls. I hate them too. I can relate to you when you say "but if it wasnt for you
i think id already be dead" because there is two people in my life that keep me going and without them I don't think i would have been here either but your peom shows your strong and we (am sure many would agree) are glad that your still with us, to write such wonderfull poetry. Poetry is a good way to let out your feeling when you don't want to openly speak about them. *huggles* keep up the fantastic work and keep living
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this is nice coz i can relate. i have had thought of suicide. i think this is something that makes us strong and i am glad that you have not yet killed yourself..
you are one of the brave ones ...
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i love this poem. i feel like this all the time. I myself have someone to go to everytime i feel like ending my life. they are always there for me and always will be. you are a great writer. keep writing i love reading your poems1*
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heeeey this is fucking good. you describe your state of mind so well and its very relatable, at least to me. i hope i can read some more of your stuff when its not 3 in the morning and i have to be up at 6. but fucking good work, keep it. thanx also for what you said about mine. its funny, i was wrecked when i wrote it and i didnt even remember what id said. subconscious = yes, fucked up! ne way once again, awesome job!
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Hey, thanks so much, im sorry to hear you can relate tho. i hope to read some of your work soon.
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this sounds like something i'd write.. i find myself that way much too often these days.. i absolutely adore this poem.. its fantastic..
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Awww thank you so much! for all your kind comments. hopefully i will get to read more of your work soon!
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awwwww,the firt few lines,just explains everything I feel everytime I feel this fucking hell,Afraid and so scared,How much it hurts and the suffering we suffer,Just how many people feels this way,everyday,every second,every life....
I hope you feel better there,this is just so amazing,you explain this so well and clearly.... -
It is easy to end one's life, but it takes skill to stray away from such a thought.... I've always complimented those who had thoughts of suicide at one point in there life and had grown passed it, those are the people that I truly consider to be the strong willed individuals in this world.
I do hope that one day these 'poo days', as it were, shall not haunt you anymore.... But, alas I know one can't go for too long without being mauled by bad days.... Well, I think that's enough rambling from me is it not?
ta-ta,
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well this was really...sad
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and im sorry you feel this way...
im glad to know how you feel, as you dont really say...
but onto the poem itself...
"I feel guilty today
because im depressed again"
I think these lines are really good...
as i think many can relate to them...including myself
even though people shouldnt feel guilty about there sadness..
but they do ...dont give into the pain...
xXx I love you xXx ~Ree~ xXx -
This is such a sad poem
I'm sorry that this is happening to you Keep writing and living Thanks for your comment, fortunately I've got a girl but it's kind of long distance, open thing rather than anything more stable. (I'm around a kinsey four in THAT way, romantically I'm definitely a 6)
Best wishes
Pozo
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