Overwhelming Love (Part IV - My Survival)

I was happy
I felt loved
And I found someone I could love.

How did I break through that apathy?

He fell for me.

Or so he says.

Fell for me
Showed me affection
And I relaxed
Allowed the current to take me
Where life chose to flow.

I floated happily
Along the stream of elation
Now the stream is a but a river,
And I'm slammed repeatedly along the rapids,
Smashed against stepping stones..

Why couldn’t you just leave me be?!

I was HAPPY!

I felt love,
And because someone became vulnerable to love me,
They left an open hole for me to fill
And I learnt to love.

/”I’ll love anyone who loves me.”/

Would I rather sit in my misery,
Crying inside the crumbling walls of
This burnt down skeleton
Of what used to be my home?
Or can I go back to my dream world,
The illusion of smoke turned to incense..
The walls painted warm, vibrant red..
No longer white with blood stains.

You had to tear it down,
Wipe the tears from my eyes,
So I could see once more,
The putridity of our love.

No longer do birds sing and stars shimmer,
For clouds cover the once sunny skies,
And smoke covers all beauty in sight,
Suffocating me like my aqueous emotions..

All because you didn’t like it,
When I treated you,
How you treat me.

This river’s drowning me,
As I reach the mouth,
I'm tossed out to sea..

Thank the Goddess
I can swim against this current,

Thank the Goddess..
..I’ve always been a mermaid..