its 11:34 p.m. on a saturday night.
why live when when you just want to die? the time goes by but so slow. memories fill my head, but they bring no joy, just pain. and my words have lost their luster. they cut my throat as i spit them out. no answer in return, i have become a burden, lost under the current. and i'm covered in a bitterness that can fill a room, and i hold my thoughts to myself, because all the people that i love and have loved have left.
they have left me in pursuit of where the water runs free. i'm dried up you see. they were devoted at some point and time, but i let them all down, and i forced the disappointment with expectations in mind. constant aches feel like they are my defense but in reality i carry no such justification. i carry emptiness. im in no ones heart.
when did this all start? no traces. no trace.
i will leave no trace.
-delete- me
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Written October 7th, 2006
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Beautiful and dark, though I think that the overall form left much to be desired. Perhaps putting it into smaller stanzas would make it easier to read. I can sympathize with you as can many others, we all at some point feel that there is nothing left and that we have exhausted all of our options. It's not so.... Find things to enjoy about life, because Goddess forbid you be faced with death and know what it is to feel like your dying. Appreciate what you do have so that you have no regrets. Merry Part and Blessed Be.
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great write
Great write even though it's sad. Great sentiments you have conveyed here. And thank you for sharing it with me.... -
it's thoughts in my head, flowing like a river...
it's like you've tapped into a stream of my unconciousness. i love this! great job!
and thanks for the comment on my poem! =]
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