I cried in the middle of the night for you because i was lonely and scared,
i came to you whenever you needed me because i was taught to acknowledge a care,
funny thing is you lied to me and you never told me why you had so much hate,
i thought i was loved and special but boy was i ever so wrong,
you asked me to give you my trust and i thought you sincerely meant it,
but again i was taken as a fool and my life was taken away without mention,
how could you hurt someone like me when you created me from your fertility soil,
i am your child and baby so you should treat me like i have always wanted to be held,
when i walk from my room to the bathroom on the day of all hallows eve,
i saw my mother on the floor bleeding and i had to swallow behind all my screams,
you told me to put her away in my closet to be in fact,
and after that my life was complete hell because you never gave a rats a*s,
when i was five years old sick pervert you took away my inner soul,
you laid your body inside me while i screamed out in bitter turmoil,
you penetrated my only way to love someone and give birth to a healthy baby,
at times when mad at you i couldn't take it so i had to sit down and breath deeply,
when grandmother came over to visit and to check up on her long dead daughter,
you tortured her before you killed her and let her see the remains you had intentionally left her,
you laid her out on the table of the kitchen and you belayed yourself in her body,
and as slowly as you had did me you laughed as you herd her beg and plead,
you took a knife and cut her up from the inside of her vagina and didn't stop until you felt better,
you threw her inside my closet and said see you in hell later,
i felt the temples in my brain heat up and boil to the hottest i could take,
and i promised and vowed to myself that i would not let you get away with this today,
i hid under your bed as you slept and watched you while you were dreaming,
i took complete advantage of my every instinct and let you receive what you had coming,
i would never misuse a child much less a child that i conceived,
and could never laugh about hurting them and making them ache and bleed,
so i cleansed you of your only weapon and gave you the punishment you deserved,
your a sick bastard who took my life away and killed both my mother and grandmother,
and as i stood in front of that judge ready to face a life of prison,
i smiled knowing i did something right for you and knowing i had begged for forgiveness,
as he asked for any last words i had to say and i looked in his eyes up above,
i said the words i always wanted to ask you,
can anyone define the word love?
Author notes
these are the words i have been urging to get across and ask.
Written October 5th, 2006
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Wow I am left speechless at this write. This is such a traumatic expirience...I'm not sure if its true or not, all the same it is captivating and horrifying. Thank you for entering and sharing. Best of luck in my contest. -
this was a really great write...very powerful and emotional as wel.l..i really enjoyed reading this...also i dont believe that anyone can begin to define love keep writting your very talented
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i loved it makes it feel so real like it was based on a true story or experiencei loved it
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I don't know if this is what has happened to you in real life, it reads like it is your own experience and brought tears to these old eyes. Either way, it's a heartfelt write, a reaching out for understanding and a meaning for life... and I have to ask the same question which I felt was in your poem.... how can this atrocity happen, how could a parent defile life and their own child
An excellent write, one which makes a personthink deeply about so called 'love'
Dee
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as i read through this,i couldnt help thinking,
if you rear a pup with cruel tyrany,the pup will one day grow to be the wolf you forced it to be,and devour the hand that beat it.
it is terrible that such darkness has covered your life to guide your muse.
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