</3 The clock keeps ticking </3

The words are in my head
but they can't seem to form on my lips
i want to say something
But my breath is short and i can't seem to breathe
the tears are flowing and i want them to stop
But the pain is overwhelming
Everything and nothing is holding you back
You don't know why this hurts so bad

But the clock keeps ticking...

You hear the disappointment flow though little words
she seems to be falling apart
you know your the one to blame
but you had to tell the truth
regretting you asked so many times
calling yourself a dick and a bastard over and over
Apologizing even though she will forgive
you keep saying...Once she even hung up
calling back you tried to make her laugh
but it didn't work
there was a long never ending silence
And you don't know why this hurts so much

But the clock keeps ticking...

He keeps apologizing
As you force the words out of your mouth
you say its OK
Calling himself a dick and a bastard was not OK
But yet again you don't say anything
Feeling bad as he rambles on
and the tears still flowing
the call ended
you start to wonder
Will our friendship ever be the same?

But the clock keeps ticking...

After the call
lying on your bed
wondering was that the right thing to do
it was...you know how much she hates liars
You can't lie to your best friend and sister
she knew this would happen before you even knew or thought
Now you understand the rejections
And the reasons she put behind them
But now you wonder about a powerful new question
Will our friendship ever be the same?

But the clock keeps ticking...

I wish he would understand
The reasons I always told him no
It was because I loved him
He is my best friend and brother
But I never knew until it was too late
And I had already broken his and mine
I made him feel bad, but didn’t want to
Trying to hold all my feelings inside
Scared of this feeling…I don’t know what to do
Now I’m alone and all I want is him.