Memories

Walking back through the dusty hallway
Deciding to come here on a whim
It's harder then I thought it would be
Last time I was here it was with him

Eighteen and holding hands
Smiling when we caught each others eyes
Stealing those few secret kisses
Neither of us thinking of goodbyes

Reaching out and touching the old blackend four poster bed
The memories flash before me
The times we laughed and cried upon it
I don't want to remember but still the house makes me see

Nineteen he's down on one knee
Eyes filling with tears
Happiness at the blessing of our parents
Enter the world and conquering our fears

Closing my eyes I try to block the images
And they won't go away
But I continue through the house
Knowing I have to stay

Twenty and the worlds at our feet
The love still there as strong as ever
Shared secrets and heartaches
Trusting we'll be together forever

Kneeling down against the half black wall
The last memory falling into place
I stand up and walk to the almost gone room
Slowly setting my pace

Twenty-one and standing outside
Hysterical with crying I can't catch my breath
As the fire started by a couple of kids
Caused my husbands burning death

Even though I tried to forget him
I know I never will and I just can't cope
So I grab the chair from the corner
Slowly stand upon it and hang the rope.