So Long....For Now

Tears roll down my face
Because the one boy I love and loves me
Can't be,with me.
Age.
Age is the problem,in this situation!
A three year difference
Wow, three years oh my god three effin years!
In four months I will be 16.
So what's the problem?
Or may that be a front, a cover-up...
For the truth,that he just don't want to be with me?
I care about  him so much.
And it's hurting me so effin much,
To know that I can't be with the one person that makes me happy!
And to know what I'm all alone again
Why?....Why god??...WHY ME!?!?
Am I really meant to be alone?
I'm losing everyone,
My mother
My father
Three of my closest friends
And now him!
Have I Done Wrong?...What have I done to deserve this life?
Why Must I be alone?
am I not capable to have someone?
I'm so afraid...
My biggest fear is not to die,but to die alone and unloved.
I don't want to be alone anymore
So I lay here on this floor
Crying and writing this poem here
Because I guess it's crystal clear
That he obviously don't want me near!