Mommy, Mommy please
Mommy, please believe me
I am telling the truth
I won't lie
I wouldn't
I can not lie to you
No Mommy
Please don't hit me again
MOMMY I SWEAR
Why can't you see
Why don't you care
I swear he did this to me
Why can't you believe
He fucked me mama
He said "give it a try"
But it wasn't a game
At least I wasn't having any fun
Mama believe me I told him to stop
He said god wanted it
He told me so mama
He said I was going to hell
Mama is it true
Am I no longer his angel
Am I still yours
NO Mama NO don't say that
I am I am
I know I am
Mama ... Am I a sin in gods eyes
Mommy PLEASE don't raise you hand
I hit him and told him to stop I swear
Just hear me out
Mommy please
He took off my top
The pink one with all the red dots
It lied on the floor
All wrinkled and torn
I screamed
"you are not allowed to see!!!"
Than he threw me down
There I laid on his bed
With a crucifix over head
I closed my eyes mama
I didn't want to die
He said he would protect me
Mama why'd he lie
You said I'd be safe
Mama you told me so
Why did you lie
I was so scared
Mommy--where were you
Couldn't you have helped
I swear-- you said you'd be there for me
But I needed you and you weren't there
Where were you
Why didn't you help
Mama he fucked me
He saw my body
Why didn't you stop him
No Mommy
I am telling you the truth
No Mommy don't say that
But Mommy ...
Why am I no longer beautiful
Mommy don't say that
Please!!!
It wasn't my fault
Mommy
What does that mean
What's a slut
No Mommy
I'm not
I'm not that
No Mommy don't call me a whore
It's not my fault
It's NOT
Mamma
Mamma help me
Please
Don't hurt me
I swear this is the truth
But mommy
I know you think he can't
Mommy men like him do though
He said it was Gods way
Was he right
Did God want me to bare his child
Mama it is his
I swear it is his child
It's his
Mama why do you call me a liar
But--but you said it yourself
He speaks the word of god
But mama
You said I could trust people with that collar
He was our priest
He is our father
Author notes
THIS IS NOT SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED TO ME. It is kind of about how screwed up people are in the world. It also is a comment on religion. Take it how you wish to. I just want to make it clear that I did not go through this. I myself have been raped just about my whole life, and not by just one man, by several. I was raped by strangers, friends, my friends’ friends, or my friends’ family. I also have been molested by many different people. So I know that crime doesn’t depend on your nationality, your age, or even your religion.
Written September 16th, 2006
A contest entry
- ~***~bruised HEARTS n broken SOULS~***~ by x-HerShatterdLife-x.
300 points, ended October 21, 2006, 26 entries
Gold trophy winner
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I want to say thank you for entering this piece. Its made me open my eyes to something I wish I never knew but denila is worse. I have also been raped several times but several different people throughout my life. I was carrying my rapists baby not too long ago but I suffered a miscarrage. You made me realize somthing and I'm greatful. This is a great write and it sounds so personal although this was not written by experience. But I guess some of what was potrayed in your words was...love this well done good luck x and take care a u x
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I dont care what everyone else says, I Loved It!! I was so full of pain and it was just amazing, I read the first two lines and i got hooked there its just so powerful. Your poem is very true in a sence that things like that happen to people. And I have to say It is NOT god's way!! And its very very deeply sad to hear that you have been raped, several times. People these days should feel safe not so much as horrified by such a thing as rape. But things change with time.
But I must say my fave part was
"You said I could trust people with that collar
He was our priest
He is our father"
Those last few words finished it off PERFECT!!
I hope you never stop writting cause it is very very clear that it is one of you amazing talents and you clearly love doing it.
And I must say your are right in everyway about what you said to do with rapist and humans being humans.
Although I personally dont know what the pain and suffering is like after you have be violated in such a way and i dare not imagine it cause I have seen things on TV and I have read stories about so many people who have been violated in such a way and its just horrifing.
And I must add one last thing you right about "crime doesn’t depend on your nationality, your age, or even your religion" but there is one thing you have forgotten, wheather you are male or female. I understand that females are the most common to be raped but what about those few males that have also been violated like that?
There are odd cases where the person who has been violated is not female but male.
It does happen, maybe not as often but indeed it does happen.
All in all I loved it and you should never stop writting no matter who is offened by your work.
~RazorBlade-Kiss-Girl
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I am truly sorry that my work offended you but some of the worlds greatest artist work is offensive to viewers. Art isn’t just meant to be entertaining but meaningful and it is meant to strike up opinions, thought, memories, or occurrences. You make a point that there are other people who could've been the rapist in my poem, whether it be the father, the step-father, the mother's boyfriend, the neighbor, even the teacher but what makes the rape any lest tragic? It shouldn’t mater who raped you what matters is that you were violated and mentally scared. If a rape victim could choose there attacker or rapist than they would choose not to be violated. Nothing can stop a person that wants to rape or attacking from doing so. By using a “man of God” I show that a human is human. With your argument… “What makes priests any different than other human beings?” I have this to say… EXACTLY!!! They are human just like the rest. Rape does occur with all kinds of different people and all different ages. Little children also are capable of such a horrific crime. I myself have been raped just about my whole life, and not by just one man, by several. I was raped by strangers, friends, my friends’ friends, or my friends’ family. I also have been molested by many different people. So I know that crime doesn’t depend on your nationality, your age, or even your religion. I am great full for your constructive criticism. Without critics in the world you wouldn’t be able to grow and learn positively. Although I am sorry for your concern and the offence you took from my poem I will not change it because I believe it humanizes people that are look upon as doing no wrong.
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Needs some work
I thought the poem was pretty well written until the last part. If you're that hateful towards the Church, you didn't have to show it. There were other people who could've been the rapist in this poem, whether it be the father, the step-father, the mother's boyfriend, the neighbor, even the teacher. When you start bashing Men of God, you've stepped outside your bounds. Sure, there have been the scandals, but it's more magnified than a regular rape. What makes priests any different than other human beings? The collar? Get real.
Being constructivly critical, please change the last part of your poem, because I won't be the only one upset with it. Also, please punctuate and use proper casing. It makes the poem much easier to read if these things are in place.
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For something you didn't go through it really had great emotion I could feel the pain of this piece. It's so sad it brought tears to my eyes
I really love the style of this piece 
and it's different from anything I've read so far. Keep Writting!!!!!!
--Trixie
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