I have a confession to make. I don't understand love at all. I read through many an accomplished poets love poems this evening, and I don't get them. Any of them. I must be really, really stupid.
I thought love was something unconditional, that you gave as a gift without expecting anything in return. That, once given, it was eternal and could not be taken back. I realize my error now. All of the poets who know about love have sad poems of lost love. People they outgrew. I don't seem to be able to outgrow anybody. I am obviously a failure. They understand that true love is about bargaining and getting more love than you give, so you have some left to give somewhere else, or something. I just don't get the merchant mentality love. Maybe that's why I am so poor!
I thought love was intimacy and spiritually uplifting the object of your love. I now realize that it is about finding someone who is really hot and can turn you on. This is enduring love. Especially if they worship you and take care of you because you really "do it" for them. All this time I have spent loving in vain! Poem after poem displayed such knowledge, and I couldn't grasp these simple concepts, until today! Maybe I need therapy? And I never realized you had to go through so many people to find one you could love! I thought that you find one that you love and that is enough. It is never enough! My expectations were too low!
I thought that if you loved someone you did what was in their best interest, even hurting their feelings when necessary to benefit them in the long run. I now see that you are supposed to manipulate people to get what you want from them. You seduce people with things they have been conditioned to respond to! Then they prove their love for you by putting up with it until they prove their unworthiness when it gets old and they need somebody new to do it. Then you blame them for everything under the sun, but still love them in a condescending way. Lots of poems about that! I don't understand it, though.
Finally, everybody says that they are just them. "That's just the way I am", as if it is a blanket excuse for not trying to do anything different, ever! I don't get it? If people are lovers, how can something be the fault of just one? In my mind, these "Lovers" are an organism unto itself. If it fails, they both are part of that failure. Fortunately, I have been corrected on this issue. It is always the fault of the other person, but you find some dignified way to make it look like you will bear the responsibility, without actually doing so. Thousands of poems about this!
In conclusion, I have come to realize that love is without a doubt the most self-indulgent and egomaniacal thing in the universe, and that I have been doing it exaclty backwards! No wonder I have not had any angst to write about! No wonder I couldn't bring myself to write about cutting, drinking blood, promiscuity, violence, bondage, seduction, pain, sorrow, hopelessness, depression, lost love, hatred, etc. I just wasn't FEELING them! I was, *gasp*, happy! No wonder my poetry is so shitty! If I had known, I would have hurt many, many more people and indulged in many, many things! Good thing I learned it before it was too late!
I would write more but I have to go get somebody drunk enough that they are seduced by even my shitty poetry, so they can learn to worship me and make my dreams come true, for a while. Life is finally good! Maybe I will learn to write tonight.
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Written September 27th, 2006
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this world has turned up side down.
lovers are now i have a friend
in america to the young
this was humor and truth
and sad also
because where is commentment
any more
great message here
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youre suppose to say, "let's fuck"
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STANDING OVATION
This was soooooooo um, i cant find good enough words for it!! DIVINE! these thoughts cross my mind as well when i read the truckloads of lov poetry here at AP!.. ur piece was FABULOUS.. deserves to be read out to EVERY single guy on earth who cribs about love.. this is totally totally awesome, LOVED IT! um, i wanna nominate it for the spotlight thingy at the homepage.. but i dont know how to.. plz help, and yeah, do i hav ur permission to? thanks for sharing.. luv and cheers, shuvi
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Forever the educator...thank you.
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Best comment ever!
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Clairvoyant
Oh Al! -
most eXcellent
OOh my how cosmically beautiful you are...Keep raging with love some of us will hear you. -
Like this: allpoetry.com/Poem/2217816
and this: allpoetry.com/Poem/2206580
but most of all, like this! allpoetry.com/poem/2153038 -
Allan...how can you define love?
Lane -
Overwhelmingly Enlightening
Wow, PerV, I just love anything that tends to shed light. This
poem is immense. By it, you are bringing much insight, needed
insight, now lessons learned, can be lived out. Thanks. -
I seriously hope everything juicy doesn't evaporate!
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Shit! Baby, I'd do ya!
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SOUNDS LIKE YOUR TALKING ABOUT A PET FERRET TO ME. BUT I NEVER UNDERSTAND YOU DO I. nice and unfortunately so true. why do we remember the sad and not the happy.. the bad not the good. sell i'm with you i turned over a new leaf and don't even try to love now ,,,, just look for sex xxx
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too bad soo sad!!!
LOL! I think you did!!! Love the ironic tongue in cheek thing! , but I think it's supposed to be in someone elses cheek to begin following your own advice!!
But here's the thing:
Endorphins rising
as is flesh
goosebumps
butterflies
staffs
chemistry
electricity
science
not soul
love evaporates
like everything juicy
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Stop it, Head! You're killing my angry mood! Ha ha ha.
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The only thing hopeless about you is that you are hopelessly and immesurably awesome. Kisses.
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No, no, no! You can't do this to me! The way I was loving was really, really, hard work! This new improved love is easy! You can't take that away from me. NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! I'm stayin' this way. Say, I got a bottle of ripple and a tatoo like Kid Rock. Let's get plastered and ... Shit! I can't remember what I'm supposed to say right there! Maybe I am hopeless!
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Well, Al, you truly did say a mouthful. I think that you are light years ahead of everyone else emotionally. I do not think that there is anything wrong with you and I know you only said that out of sarcasm but i'm adding it for my sake. We (I do include myself here) are all a buch of sick fucks who for some reason can't seem to grasp love in its purest form. For this write I give you my applaud and big woot. Merry Part and Blessed Be.
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