You are so far away, for me to hold. Songs on the radio keep reminding me of the Vacant space between us. Nothing in this World can ever fill that void.You are so far away, for me to hold.So I just stay in my room. Imagining a perfect world out my window. The seasons change. Fashions fade.Still my love for you seems to grow.You are so far away for me to hold.I close my eyes and think of you here. The warmthOf your soul was what kept me alive. With out you I find it hard to survive…. That is what goes trough my mind every time I am in pain. Pain is the reason why I wish for t to rain. The drip drops of the water cleanse my body and numb my soul. Happy times were spent in the rain. Memories of our new love come back. Missing those days, of when you used to hold me, I start to cry. I MUST BE STRONG!Crying aggravates you even more. I am not sure why. Not certain on why you come to me mad. “Please don’t yell, me love” I say as you push me away. “ What is wrong my love?” I ask as your hand passes my cheek.You paint my skin red before you pick me up. I mustn’t speak of the hurt from when you hold me. The way you do it leaves me breathless. When I want to scream you shut me up. Reasons for your attitude are unknown. I ponder on the idea as I lay on the ground. From the corner of my eye, I can see you redecorate our home. Violently push things to the ground. It was time to buy new things anyway. I believe this to be a phase. I am positive on the thought that you still love me. I know that I am the fault. The reason on why you are mad. I am truly sorry.Will you forgive me? The house looks perfect, by the way. You come and help me up. “ I’m sorry” you whisper as you take me by the arms and clean the blood. I kiss you and say, “ Its ok because I love you”
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Written September 24th, 2006
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