That blade never looked so good,
It's edge has never looked so sharp
Another urge has struck
And this one I don't think I can control
I miss the way the blood came out
The way it stung afterwards
It's been a solid week,
A week sense I haven't felt the relief
The relief I need so much
I can't take the pain anymore
I've left it bottled up for 7 days
I need to set it free, I must
Just one good cut is all I need
But then again I don't want to
My wrists finally look normal
No need for hairbands or bracelets anymore
And when people make fun of cutters at school
I'm not embarrassed because I haven't been like that for awhile
So far I've kept my secret hidden from them
But it won't be like that forever
One of theses days it will leak out
And it will spread through out the whole school
And that will be the worst day ever
So now I have a choice to make
One that will effect me,
Like all the times before
I want to fight this
And I've put up a good fight for 7 days
But my defences are getting weak
Soon they will crumble
I once again I'll attempt suicide
Only to again fail
I'm going to try to fight,
Beat this as best I can
But if I do give in,
Just know I went down with a fight
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Written September 11th, 2006
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please whatever you do... dont attemt 'suicide'
ive already lost a friend recently, a gf, and have generally had a bit of shit time, i dont think i can handle another loss, especially one to this scale ^_^
i dont know whether you think it or not, or weather ist just me being clingy (lol) but i consider you a good friend youve already been there for me sooo much when no-one else cares...
fuck the people at school they'd never understand, and your mates would care but they wouldent be scared away, im sure they'd want to help... (sorry.. i went off my hook a bit ^_^) -
Woah, i feel exactly the same..
It's amazing how your poems always hit home.
It's like we feel exactly the same at the same time.
That's really.. weird but..woah o.0
Great poem :]
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i really feel for you. i've been here many times before. reading this really takes me back to those times. to tell you the truth, it's only been about a week since i did so we're kind of in the same boat. hang in there.
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Keep trying you can do it I promise
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