despirate

These days without you lower my esteem
My need for you is seemingly extreme
How do I prove my love to you?
Is it possible to start this anew?

Looking into my eyes, you make me melt
But on my heart right now there's a welt
See I want to take back all of the bad
I never meant to make you sad

Drunkenness is not an excuse
for now, can we just call a truce
Can we just put this all behind
Can we just put this all out of mind

Baby I love you so deeply and I love you so much
Its killing me sitting here without your touch
I'm trying to think of a gesture to win you back
But every plan seems to have a crack

Telling you I love you just wont do the trick
And obviously you can tell that I'm not that slick
You told me to think of something, and I'm trying to
I've wrecked my brain, if you only knew

So here I am trying to maybe find a place into your heart
I don't know about you, but my hearts been torn apart
Quite frankly this isn't even a poem anymore
Its actually probably beginning to be a bore

My rhyme schemes suck, and this poem is a bit mushy, but I'm trying to pour my heart into it. but putting that much emotion into this has probably just made it suck. You're probably getting sick of hearing me say that I'm trying to think of something to do to win you back. but i am. if i could be there with you right now just talking things through with you i would be. i want to be calm and rational. i want to work through this. i want to be with you. and if you love me as much as you say you do this is really playing through your mind as well. but do know this, i love you with everything in me. my entire body is just dragging because I'm so down and depressed right now. I've cried everyday and every night. I've drank until I've puked. I've had you on my mind 24/7 and i don't mind it. i like it when you're on my mind, i just want to get back on your good side. how can i do this? please tell me. i would buy you the world if i could. but i cant...and buying you things will prove nothing. I'm trying to think of a gesture that will go straight to your heart. I've got nothing babe. omg i need you so bad. NEED you. i just wish you'd feel the same way. i love you, and hopefully I'll talk to you later.