Urge runs through my veins

An urge runs through my veins

I must set it free

Release it before it builds to something more

Something I won't be able to control

I can feel a breakdown coming

So I'm preparing for the worst

But this night there's no one to run to

I swore to myself I would beat this

I can't give in, I just CAN'T!

I've made it three days so far

And that's good for me

Because I use to cut everyday

Tears are welling up in my eyes

But I can't let them fall

Because in the situation crying makes it worst

It drives me to cut my skin more

My stomach feels queasy

My head is pounding with pain

As the urge runs through my veins

I just can't do it, not now

Because my scars are finally fading

I can't have more!

I'm sick of keeping them hidden

I'm sick of worrying that someone will see

But if I do give in tonight

I might just go a little to far

This night might but like the night I overdosed

When I lyed there on the floor

Blood falling from my wrist

That was the night I came 5 pills away from death

The night death was so close I could feel it

God be with me, make me strong

Because I can feel it in my heart

I might not last that long