burning memories of him

think back to a moment when things were happy
words were light and feelings were heavy
think back to that moment then throw it all way
nothing but your face is left, burning a sour place in my head
i cant recognize these feelings
they're feelings of hate
but never did i believe i would have them for you
any love or life that i gained is now lost
and nothing, no! nothing could bring them back
there isn't a word you could say to make me feel sorry
or have any kind of ridiculous sympathy
you will never have me again
and i hope that tears at your heart
i hope it makes your eyes bleed tears every night before you sleep
because i hate you so
now, as i calm from an infuriating disease that you call your existence
i will burn the memories with no despair
and you will be lost to me forever
but your life will carry on in misery